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I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Mr. Misery
()
Date: September 19, 2011 10:18PM
several times everyday. Loud, sobbing, snot, sound effects crying. Weeping.
why does crying feel so bad?
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why does crying feel so bad?
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Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Mr. Misery
()
Date: September 19, 2011 11:47PM
crying every day
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
trogdor!
()
Date: September 20, 2011 12:21AM
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> crying every day
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> crying every day
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Mr. Misery
()
Date: September 20, 2011 01:38AM
bloody blisters Wrote:
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> ever try, not crying?
I cry because I have a blue sadness deep inside of me. Deep in the pit of my stomach. My heart is weak. That's why I cry. You've never felt true, deep, immutable sadness in your heart, that won't go away, no matter what you do? When you wake up shaking, having chills, heart racing, every day for months and months and even years? You've never felt that deep blue immovable, incurable sadness in your heart? It aches. A dull throb. Constant. It never really goes away. Don't want to get out of bed. Don't want to step outside. Don't want to eat. Sadness so deep it's frightening. You're afraid. Afraid of your own thoughts. Afraid of the world. Can't find joy or interest in anything. Can't get out of bed. Deep. Blue. An immovable object in the pit of your stomach. Deep, deep blue. You've never felt that true deep blue sadness?
then maybe you are able to not cry. I try not to. It's useless. Every day, the thought crosses your mind. A very tall building. A ligature tied to a doorknob. The right combination of pills. You have a habit of looking up at tall buildings and wondering.....is it high enough.....? You look up at tall buildings. In a different way than most. Not a good way.
I'd rather be dead most of the time. Only very rarely am I 'okay' with being alive. Only very rarely. And I am never 'happy'......'okay' is the plateau. As good as it gets. The best you can hope for.
You can't get out of bed.
I have tried not crying. It doesn't work.
I have a weak, weak heart.
I haven't the heart.
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> ever try, not crying?
I cry because I have a blue sadness deep inside of me. Deep in the pit of my stomach. My heart is weak. That's why I cry. You've never felt true, deep, immutable sadness in your heart, that won't go away, no matter what you do? When you wake up shaking, having chills, heart racing, every day for months and months and even years? You've never felt that deep blue immovable, incurable sadness in your heart? It aches. A dull throb. Constant. It never really goes away. Don't want to get out of bed. Don't want to step outside. Don't want to eat. Sadness so deep it's frightening. You're afraid. Afraid of your own thoughts. Afraid of the world. Can't find joy or interest in anything. Can't get out of bed. Deep. Blue. An immovable object in the pit of your stomach. Deep, deep blue. You've never felt that true deep blue sadness?
then maybe you are able to not cry. I try not to. It's useless. Every day, the thought crosses your mind. A very tall building. A ligature tied to a doorknob. The right combination of pills. You have a habit of looking up at tall buildings and wondering.....is it high enough.....? You look up at tall buildings. In a different way than most. Not a good way.
I'd rather be dead most of the time. Only very rarely am I 'okay' with being alive. Only very rarely. And I am never 'happy'......'okay' is the plateau. As good as it gets. The best you can hope for.
You can't get out of bed.
I have tried not crying. It doesn't work.
I have a weak, weak heart.
I haven't the heart.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Ellipsis
()
Date: September 20, 2011 01:39AM
Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure what ails you.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Mr. Misery
()
Date: September 20, 2011 01:48AM
Ellipsis Wrote:
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> Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> what ails you.
thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store. And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob. I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's "Stars"..............
signing off now guys
bye
my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and I am a design student at the Art Institute of Washington.
harry...........I am sorry
alias..........I love you
/
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> Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> what ails you.
thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store. And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob. I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's "Stars"..............
signing off now guys
bye
my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and I am a design student at the Art Institute of Washington.
harry...........I am sorry
alias..........I love you
/
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Ellipsis
()
Date: September 20, 2011 01:56AM
At least try fucking your mother first before you decide to whack yourself.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
ProVallone
()
Date: September 20, 2011 07:48AM
Is his Mom hot?
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
not him
()
Date: September 20, 2011 08:39AM
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
nice try Jerry. Just remember, the razor blade must be sharp and cut vertical not vertical horizontal
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
nice try Jerry. Just remember, the razor blade must be sharp and cut vertical not vertical horizontal
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
jbalo
()
Date: September 20, 2011 10:36AM
Good song choice. I think I would choose The Velvet Underground's "After Hours."
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
anonymiz
()
Date: September 20, 2011 11:02AM
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
What a dick
()
Date: September 20, 2011 12:51PM
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax. I find it hard to believe you live there but don't know your own address.
It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions, in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view from the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that a single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute graduate with your slew of problems can afford to live there by yourself.
Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist. http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
It's fucking disgusting that you need attention so badly that you'd resort to this bullshit. If there's anyone left on here that gives a rat's ass about you, you're going to make them worry for what? Your own gratification?
What if someone called 911 and reported a suicide in progress? At best you're just sending the cops to harass some stranger with a wellness check. At worst, you're wasting the cops' and paramedics' time when they could otherwise be out helping someone who actually needs help.
I wish Cary would make an exception to his non-disclosure policy for you because of the sick shit you put on his website. What you do goes far, far beyond the normal trolling you'd expect on a public forum.
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> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax. I find it hard to believe you live there but don't know your own address.
It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions, in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view from the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that a single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute graduate with your slew of problems can afford to live there by yourself.
Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist. http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
It's fucking disgusting that you need attention so badly that you'd resort to this bullshit. If there's anyone left on here that gives a rat's ass about you, you're going to make them worry for what? Your own gratification?
What if someone called 911 and reported a suicide in progress? At best you're just sending the cops to harass some stranger with a wellness check. At worst, you're wasting the cops' and paramedics' time when they could otherwise be out helping someone who actually needs help.
I wish Cary would make an exception to his non-disclosure policy for you because of the sick shit you put on his website. What you do goes far, far beyond the normal trolling you'd expect on a public forum.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Just Maybe
()
Date: September 20, 2011 08:34PM
What a dick Wrote:
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>
> 105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax. I
> find it hard to believe you live there but don't
> know your own address.
>
> It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions,
> in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view from
> the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that a
> single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute
> graduate with your slew of problems can afford to
> live there by yourself.
>
> Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist.
> http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
>
Maybe, 105 Swinks Mill Road does exist in McLean. Someone could be living in a Whirlpool refrigerator box in the trees at that approximate location.
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>
> 105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax. I
> find it hard to believe you live there but don't
> know your own address.
>
> It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions,
> in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view from
> the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that a
> single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute
> graduate with your slew of problems can afford to
> live there by yourself.
>
> Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist.
> http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
>
Maybe, 105 Swinks Mill Road does exist in McLean. Someone could be living in a Whirlpool refrigerator box in the trees at that approximate location.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Pretty sure
()
Date: September 20, 2011 08:41PM
Just Maybe Wrote:
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> What a dick Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> >
> > 105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax.
> I
> > find it hard to believe you live there but
> don't
> > know your own address.
> >
> > It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions,
> > in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view
> from
> > the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that
> a
> > single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute
> > graduate with your slew of problems can afford
> to
> > live there by yourself.
> >
> > Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist.
> > http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
> >
>
> Maybe, 105 Swinks Mill Road does exist in McLean.
> Someone could be living in a Whirlpool
> refrigerator box in the trees at that approximate
> location.
I'm sure one of the psychos on here got in their car with their
GPS looking for that location.
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> What a dick Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> >
> > 105 Swinks Mill Road is in McLean, not Fairfax.
> I
> > find it hard to believe you live there but
> don't
> > know your own address.
> >
> > It's a swanky neighborhood with McMansions,
> > in-ground pools, hedges obstructing the view
> from
> > the road, etc. I find it hard to believe that
> a
> > single, anti-social 26 year-old Art Institute
> > graduate with your slew of problems can afford
> to
> > live there by yourself.
> >
> > Also, 105 Swinks Mill Road doesn't exist.
> > http://zip4.usps.com/zip4/zcl_0_results.jsp
> >
>
> Maybe, 105 Swinks Mill Road does exist in McLean.
> Someone could be living in a Whirlpool
> refrigerator box in the trees at that approximate
> location.
I'm sure one of the psychos on here got in their car with their
GPS looking for that location.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Good theory, but...
()
Date: September 21, 2011 12:45AM
Pretty sure Wrote:
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> I'm sure one of the psychos on here got in their
> car with their
> GPS looking for that location.
It wouldn't appear on GPS. The address doesn't exist.
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> I'm sure one of the psychos on here got in their
> car with their
> GPS looking for that location.
It wouldn't appear on GPS. The address doesn't exist.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
496
()
Date: September 21, 2011 07:37AM
Is he dead yet?
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
Bearer of Bad News
()
Date: September 21, 2011 10:42AM
496 Wrote:
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> Is he dead yet?
Unfortunately, no. It was just another bullshit attention ploy.
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> Is he dead yet?
Unfortunately, no. It was just another bullshit attention ploy.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
ProVallone
()
Date: September 21, 2011 01:01PM
Miz was alright, for a while
Miz could smile for a while
but when he saw Conie last night
She held his testes so tight
as she stopped to say hello
although she wished him well
she could not tell
That Miz was cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie, cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie
Conie said "so long". left Miz standing all alone
Alone and crying, crying, crying cry-i-ing
It's hard to understand but when Conie touched his gland
you Can start Miz crying
Miz could smile for a while
but when he saw Conie last night
She held his testes so tight
as she stopped to say hello
although she wished him well
she could not tell
That Miz was cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie, cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie
Conie said "so long". left Miz standing all alone
Alone and crying, crying, crying cry-i-ing
It's hard to understand but when Conie touched his gland
you Can start Miz crying
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
geronimo1
()
Date: September 21, 2011 03:45PM
ProVallone Wrote:
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> Miz was alright, for a while
> Miz could smile for a while
> but when he saw Conie last night
> She held his testes so tight
> as she stopped to say hello
> although she wished him well
> she could not tell
> That Miz was cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie, cry-i-i-i-ng
> over Conie
> Conie said "so long". left Miz standing all alone
> Alone and crying, crying, crying cry-i-ing
> It's hard to understand but when Conie touched
> his gland
> you Can start Miz crying
I am amazed at how fuckwitted this attempt is, Cheese-Fuckwit.
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> Miz was alright, for a while
> Miz could smile for a while
> but when he saw Conie last night
> She held his testes so tight
> as she stopped to say hello
> although she wished him well
> she could not tell
> That Miz was cry-i-i-i-ng over Conie, cry-i-i-i-ng
> over Conie
> Conie said "so long". left Miz standing all alone
> Alone and crying, crying, crying cry-i-ing
> It's hard to understand but when Conie touched
> his gland
> you Can start Miz crying
I am amazed at how fuckwitted this attempt is, Cheese-Fuckwit.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
but you appear to..
()
Date: September 21, 2011 05:26PM
I can't see that, you have such an aire of confidence and "Devil may care" about you. Your or you come across as a real GQ type of guy, a man about town, a bon vivant. You have great panache and people like Queen Elizabeth and Madonna can't hold a candle to you.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
damn..........
()
Date: May 11, 2019 03:04PM
Mr. Misery Wrote:
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
DAMN.
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> Ellipsis Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Why don't you go fuck your mother? It may cure
> > what ails you.
>
>
> thank you.....I just emptied the bottle. Not that
> bottle. The other bottle. One from the drug store.
> And then the other bottle. My plastic bag is ready
> to go. I have my ligature secured to the doorknob.
> I'm playing my favorite song.....The Slacker's
> "Stars"..............
>
> signing off now guys
>
> bye
>
>
> my name is Michael Benitez. I live at 105 Swinks
> Mill Rd., Fairfax Virginia. I am 26 years old and
> I am a design student at the Art Institute of
> Washington.
>
> harry...........I am sorry
>
> alias..........I love you
>
>
> /
DAMN.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
sad shit
()
Date: May 12, 2019 01:22PM
Miz wanted to end it all. He stabbed his father instead.
Re: I'm crying all the time again
Posted by:
am why
()
Date: September 10, 2020 03:18PM
sad shit Wrote:
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> Miz wanted to end it all. He stabbed his father
> instead.
True.
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> Miz wanted to end it all. He stabbed his father
> instead.
True.