This is a serious question:

I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with, guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price range?

Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head, through the temple, up through the mouth, or through the chest?

> ...(for a novice)...

Hmmm...are there EXPERIENCED people who have blown their brains out?

I'd say hold the barrel of the gun to your forehead at a slightly downward angle.

Make sure the caliber is at least 38 or 357 , I wouldn't trust a 22 or a 25, you want to make sure your brain is really decimated.

The price range should not be a consideration, buy it on credit, who is going to collect once you're blown to eternity?

Thank you for not commiting suicide with a train,or jumping off an overpass onto a highway, it ruins the day for thousands of commuters.

I would think a shotgun upwards in the mouth would do the job.

Oh yes, but very messy.

Don't forget, SOMEONE has to clean up.

12 gauge. 9 pellet buck shot. Under the chin pointed at about a 45 degree angle. Your head will be turned into a red mist.

I too am curious how someone could have experience at blowing their brains out?

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> I too am curious how someone could have experience
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> Oh yes, but very messy.
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> Don't forget, SOMEONE has to clean up..


Best thing to do would be to drive up to skyline drive and hike about a mile into the woods before you do it. After they find your car a couple days later the buzzards will show the park service employees your location and by then there will not be much left for them to bag up and haul out of there. You can always rent a car if you need to.

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Oh yeah, that really helped keeping the mess down. How considerate of her to spray her brains in the tub.

Best way is to get questioned in relation to the Boston Bombings. The Feds will clean up everything free of charge.

Best way to do it is drive out Rt29 towards the Manassas battlefields. Stop at the rock place. Climb the fence and then jump. Its a sure way and much cheaper.

BEH Wrote:
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> I'd say hold the barrel of the gun to your
> forehead at a slightly downward angle.
>
> Make sure the caliber is at least 38 or 357 , I
> wouldn't trust a 22 or a 25, you want to make sure
> your brain is really decimated.
>
> The price range should not be a consideration, buy
> it on credit, who is going to collect once you're
> blown to eternity?
>
> Thank you for not commiting suicide with a
> train,or jumping off an overpass onto a highway,
> it ruins the day for thousands of commuters.


thank you, but layman's terms please; what is the gun called that you would recommend? does the gun have a name, like 'the colt magnum 89' or something? all the guages and numbers are confusing.

Just get a cheap Rossi .38 you can pick up one at the gun show used for about 130 to 150 bucks. No need for anything fancy or accurate.

>
> thank you, but layman's terms please; what is the
> gun called that you would recommend? does the gun
> have a name, like 'the colt magnum 89' or
> something? all the guages and numbers are
> confusing.


To quote an obviously enlightened poster...
"Just get a cheap Rossi .38 you can pick up one at the gun show used for about 130 to 150 bucks. No need for anything fancy or accurate."

Whenever one of my co-workers would threaten to commit suicide I'd ask them to please go outside the building and off Federal property. No mess for our maintenance crew to clean up and a Hell of a lot less paperwork for me to fill out. If they did it inside the building I would have all sorts of paperwork. If they did it outside all I would have to do is send my boss a memo saying they failed to report to work as scheduled.

I would use a shotgun, any 12 gauge will work, but since you asked for specifics, go with the Remington 870. Buy the shortest barrel you can (easier to hold). Any gun store or sporting goods store should have one. Buy 00 buck shot, any brand.

Please call these people first though - 1-800-273-8255
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Hahaha I have the exact gun. Called the Home Defender. 18" barrel and holds 7 shells (altho you should only need one for this job)

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> Hahaha I have the exact gun. Called the Home
> Defender. 18" barrel and holds 7 shells (altho you
> should only need one for this job)


Me too!

 

Save $50-$100 and get a Mossberg.

eesh, why would saving money be an issue?

Damn...not one parson told this bro to get help...i guess ill be that guy, listen to me, you should try some ecstasy or acid, please, like that helped me, go to some raves...idk, your worth more than you think buddie c: sorry if your already dead v-v

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> I would use a shotgun, any 12 gauge will work, but
> since you asked for specifics, go with the
> Remington 870. Buy the shortest barrel you can
> (easier to hold). Any gun store or sporting goods
> store should have one. Buy 00 buck shot, any
> brand.
>
> Please call these people first though -
> 1-800-273-8255
> .



He told them to get help

Here's some help.
Go to the Phillipines first and throw yourself a helluva going away party. Try the Dollhouse in Angeles city. Help the LBFMs out before you off yourself. Hell, you might change your mind!

I have to say it is sad that no one made even a slight suggestion to not doing. Gunny. brother there are other options. There is still light at the end of the tunnel. I know you don't want to hear it but there is. Just give it a day. If not for you then how bout for a soldier who thinks it all te time but straps up and moves out. A guy like me. I don't know you but I truly hope that you continue to go on with your life. I wish you the best of luck, God bless and I hope love enters your heart.

Uh....I think it's a bit late for that. Actually way late and $50 short!

I have had a Nuerological disease for about a year that can be controled or even sent into remission with IV immmuniglogulin treatment, but although I have Kaiser insurance they have refused to do the tests to diagnose and treat me because the treatment is expensive. Month after month I fought for each additional test to get me closer to the treatment I need that is covered by my insurance that I paid for but they have stalled for over a year. Now i am bedridden an too sick and poor to fight or sue at this point because I haven't worked for so long and because they refused to treat me for so long. I have purchased a Mossberg 500 12 gauge shotgun. I am ordering #1 buckshot ammo as that is the most effective. http://www.ar15.com/content/page.html?id=176

http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/firearms After the 10 day waiting period I will be free from the pain. This is Kaiser insurance in southern california.

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Because Mossberg weapons are built in Connecticut. I think each year when they realize that their sales keep on growing, it's got to be a great number to rub in the fact of the anti-gun whack-jobs who live in Connecticut.



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> This is a serious question:
>
> I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at
> all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with,
> guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price
> range?
>
> Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head,
> through the temple, up through the mouth, or
> through the chest?
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Guns are for shooting others.. Not yourself

Do not kill yourself.

It is selfish and will ruin the lives of everyone that loves, cares about, and has befriended you.

Get help by calling the Suicide Prevention Hotline.

But if you ever reach the level of complete selfishness that makes you determined to kill yourself - please participate in the Republican 'Climate Change is a Hoax' study first.

Fill your car with gas. Then park your car in your garage. Close the garage doors. Run a hose from the car exhaust pipe in through a crack in the drivers side window. Put towels on either side of the hose to seal the window. Get in the drivers seat. Close the door. Start the car. Recline the seat. Nod off to sleep for 6-8 hours. Simply report your experiences here on FFXU the following day.

Next, exercise your 2nd Amendment rights and go buy a cheap used gun without a background check at some gun show even though you are in the Suicide Prevention Hotline database which even the NSA can't tap into. Then participate in the Republican 'Guns don't kill people' study. Load your gun. Put it to your head. Turn the safety off. Pull the trigger. Have your gun tell us how it didn't kill you the following day.

H&K Guy Wrote:
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> Do not kill yourself.
>
> It is selfish and will ruin the lives of everyone
> that loves, cares about, and has befriended you.
>
> Get help by calling the Suicide Prevention
> Hotline.
>
> But if you ever reach the level of complete
> selfishness that makes you determined to kill
> yourself - please participate in the Republican
> 'Climate Change is a Hoax' study first.
>
> Fill your car with gas. Then park your car in your
> garage. Close the garage doors. Run a hose from
> the car exhaust pipe in through a crack in the
> drivers side window. Put towels on either side of
> the hose to seal the window. Get in the drivers
> seat. Close the door. Start the car. Recline the
> seat. Nod off to sleep for 6-8 hours. Simply
> report your experiences here on FFXU the following
> day.
>
> Next, exercise your 2nd Amendment rights and go
> buy a cheap used gun without a background check at
> some gun show even though you are in the Suicide
> Prevention Hotline database which even the NSA
> can't tap into. Then participate in the Republican
> 'Guns don't kill people' study. Load your gun. Put
> it to your head. Turn the safety off. Pull the
> trigger. Have your gun tell us how it didn't kill
> you the following day.


You identify yourself by a gun manufacturer? Pathetic

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> Guns are for shooting others.. Not yourself

Since when did Dexter kill with guns?

friskydingo Wrote:
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> I would use a shotgun, any 12 gauge will work, but
> since you asked for specifics, go with the
> Remington 870. Buy the shortest barrel you can
> (easier to hold). Any gun store or sporting goods
> store should have one. Buy 00 buck shot, any
> brand.
>
> Please call these people first though -
> 1-800-273-8255
> .




Can felons own firearms?

I think it's funny the op was asking about price range...

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> I think it's funny the op was asking about price
> range...




So suicide is funny to you? That speaks volumes about your character, or lack thereof.

Hay esh, how long did it that to get that mascara off, huh?

Putting mascara on... Is thay something you do instead of having a sense of humor?

Thanks in advance for your speedy reply.

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> Hay esh, how long did it that to get that mascara
> off, huh?
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> Putting mascara on... Is thay something you do
> instead of having a sense of humor?
>
> Thanks in advance for your speedy reply.
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Lol... Homie can't type... How long did it that to? Wtf

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> Hay esh, how long did it that to get that mascara
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> Putting mascara on... Is thay something you do
> instead of having a sense of humor?
>
> Thanks in advance for your speedy reply.

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wut

No you ding dong. Experienced gun handler.

I woulnt worry what gun would work. dont use a gun! You may end up a vegitable. Guns will kick and youll probly miss the right spot. Id use dynamite. Wrap a couple sticks around your neck,all u need is a button to push,to set it off. And doit in the desert. You wont have a big mess in your car or in your house.your loved ones can have your car and you can give your house to them too. Now thats not selfish.

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> I woulnt worry what gun would work. dont use a
> gun! You may end up a vegitable. Guns will kick
> and youll probly miss the right spot. Id use
> dynamite. Wrap a couple sticks around your
> neck,all u need is a button to push,to set it off.
> And doit in the desert. You wont have a big mess
> in your car or in your house.your loved ones can
> have your car and you can give your house to them
> too. Now thats not selfish.

but where to get dynamite?

Skip all that nonsense. Just listen to some gun nut drone on about the right to own any and all guns. That should make your head explode.

I won the "how many downers can you drop" contest a few years ago. I survived 52 - 10mg Percocet and 30 - 0.5 mg Xanax. I was found 2 days later with a blood sugar of 6 (not compatible with life) and woke up 3 days later in the hospital. 5 agonizing days in a psych ward, which was worse than death. 2 years later I am ready to give it a second try, but don't wanna leave anything to chance. I have a 12 guage and some skeet shot, I think this should do the trick, gonna try the mouth / brainstem method, if it doesn't work I will let you know!

Come back and let us know how it worked out.

Really it does not matter what you use as long as you do it correctly.

Eat the bullet.

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=9d9_1353107755

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> > Hahaha I have the exact gun. Called the Home
> > Defender. 18" barrel and holds 7 shells (altho
> you
> > should only need one for this job)
>
>
> Me too!

I can personally vouch for the reliability and ease of handling of this weapon. Worked flawlessly at the Navy Yard a couple years ago!

What is your reason for wanting to do this? I'm sincerely curious? Terminal illness? Betrayal by someone you gave your soul to? Catastrophic injury? Burn victim? Prior attempt with shotgun that didn't work out? You're 95 with no family and stuck in an abusive nursing home? You were imprisoned for a crime you didn't commit and are sodomized on a daily basis by your cell mate and his friends? You're homeless, freezing to death, with no family, and no one will help? Honestly, I have to wonder.

Look dude, sometimes life is good. Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes life sucks for a very long time through no fault of your own, perhaps even because you did the right thing and got thrown under the bus for your trouble by corrupt people trying to cover their tracks. It happens. Sometimes you can't see a way out. When that happens, you have choices.

You can choose religion. They'll tell you who to worship and where to send money and you'll have a peer group...which beats not having a peer group.

You can see a shrink. They'll give you meds, care till your insurance runs out, and take (rather than ask for) your money. You're only peer group will be other people who think they are screwed up and must pay a shrink so someone will pretend they care about them. The shrink sure isn't inviting you over to watch the football game.

Or you can just realize, life is short, no one is getting out alive. The douche who sabotaged you isn't either, but why give the bastard the satisfaction of seeing you quit? Why give the person who hurt you the satisfaction of learning that you gave up. No way.

Take a trip, indulge in something you enjoy, maybe you'll realize you enjoy something and figure out a way to do more of it. But dying, crap, I'd at least want to go skydiving and skip the chute or scuba diving to the blue hole and drop my regulator or do something fun.

A gun...why bother...shit, just get a heavy revolver in a caliber sufficient to hunt deer and call it. Otherwise, live a little and call someone and get some help...

That's what I'd advise.

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The Bud Dwyer clip is real, for those that do not know he was a crooked politician from Penn I believe....

If you are to launch a temple shot it ends up more like this....

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=ab9_1342553802&comments=1

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Looks fake to me. No recoil and no hammer drop.

So I guess the forum met with another success story?..

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>
> Hmmm...are there EXPERIENCED people who have blown
> their brains out?

The entire republican party............

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> The Bud Dwyer clip is real, for those that do not
> know he was a crooked politician from Penn I
> believe....
>
> If you are to launch a temple shot it ends up more
> like this....
>
> http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=ab9_1342553802&comm
> ents=1


That's a goodie there...

Listen to the cops after it happens.. "Holy fuck" "Nobody shook him [down]"
They are worried shitless about what their superiors are going to say.

idontlikebeingrightaboutshitlikethisbutiam



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Snide replies aside, take this seriously, IF YOU DO DO IT, just know, in your mouth then point the barrel of the gun up into the rough of your mouth - this ensures placement and consequence. ANd is preferable to a gaping hole in your face, and being alive to deal with it.

But don't do it. Otherwise, good luck!!!

Please lay plastic on the floor or better yet the ground outside.Cheap 20x20 sheet, sit in the middle. Better yet...don't do it! When I feel All's lost I go grab a sparkplug wire while the car is running, won't kill you but really resets the brain for the rest of the day. My personal best is about 2.5 seconds at 2000 rpm. It really does change your suicidal thoughts. Have to ask yourself after you tried it why did my brain and body want to stop holding on to it so bad, because you really do want to live! And a good electric adrenaline high feels good afterwards! Isn't that what you want? Make the pain go away? Not kill yourself!

the U.K. got citizens to disarm , having police with only night clubs, the public agreed

after [parliament] eliminated all sources of weapons they heavily armed the police - who now put a gun to the head of any brit who asks that gov do the law - and with a gun to his head - his only answer is "never mind" or burial or prison

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^^^ what demcrats mean when they say "unarmed"

^^^ they mean squads of hired gunman protecting political families

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^^^ who the NY,NJ gov of VA , mc au lift, is running from

justice and women who wouldn't take an ounce of crap from him, living in NY

the supposed home of democrats. but it isnt'. that's a fucking lie.

NY,NY is full of fucking foreigners counterfeiting money and finincially attacking USA. that's the truth.

NY,NY is pushing china imports by force - attacking any factory in USA still standing. signing any false papers that the factory "is not making money" - while having 10x worse going on and shipping costs from china - that are simply dissapearing: until there's no choice - then the price quadruples.

but it's NOT New Yorker's doing it or voting for it. it's the democrat political people the whole time.

some new yorkers are fleeing the state. %50 tax rate. $60 + / carton cigarettes (was $10 / carton before NY,NY started gaining wholistic power)

meanwhile in the city there are "tax free zones" for rich political and fucking foreigners running "businesses" in NY,NY

the "real news" is. NY,NY has "moved on" from their relationship with hostile take-overs of USA factories.

they are now doing hostile take-overs of counties - and then states. wholely bankrupting the places by takeing out huge loans to NJ or NY,NY in the county's name.

what do you know. many ny polititians in fx co. area including hillary.

what do you know. bull-o-va gov must be getting it's billions in debts of loans from somewhere. YOU GUESSED IT: it's not from Nova Scotia. it's from: NY,NY

NY,NY is in VA to force it to take bogus loans and steal the tobacoo money

it's called: HOSTILE TAKEOVER

and it's a science they study as if legal in Harvard and other trash democrat schools

Thanks for the tip on shotgun placement. I was afraid the in-the-mouth method might have a high failure rate. Nothing would be worse than failing once you make this decision.

You assholes. Really understanding about why someone would want to do this, and that someone would have the right to what happens to their own body. I hate you all, you unsympathetic, egotistical, limited creatures

Best post yet. Yes the mental prison is the worst, worse than any suicide attempt. I have tried several time with pills, have found it doesn't work. But I am afraid that the gun will jerk, misfire, and leave me worse off, without the ability to try again.

Of all the places to seek attention or advice..
Most idiots on here can't even type..

You guys make me want to shoot myself..

Stop attention seeking..
Instead of searching for Attention or Death..
Go search for Life..

People much worse off are still living happy..
Happiness is not given to you, it is earned..

Nobody should tell a person to kill themselves or assist in helping them. And also to your point if he does do what you said the gun didn't kill him. He killed himself using the gun.

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> This is a serious question:
>
> I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at
> all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with,
> guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price
> range?
>
> Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head,
> through the temple, up through the mouth, or
> through the chest?

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> This is a serious question:
>
> I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at
> all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with,
> guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price
> range? G
>
> Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head,
> through the temple, up through the mouth, or
> through the chest?

Please start with a nerf gun and if that doesn't work, please get a therapist .. Your life has a specific purpose and meaning.

Getting tired of people saying that others have it worse off and that life has a purpose. Mental illness is mental illness and sometimes it's untreatable. What's worse, ending your existence or living a life of misery, knowing that even if situations get better your mind will always be naturally gloomy?

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> > ...(for a novice)...
>
> Hmmm...are there EXPERIENCED people who have blown
> their brains out?


Well, people who have attempted to shoot themselves, and somehow failed (and this does in fact happen) could at elast tell you what gun NOT to use. Or at least how not to use it.

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> Getting tired of people saying that others have it
> worse off and that life has a purpose. Mental
> illness is mental illness and sometimes it's
> untreatable. What's worse, ending your existence
> or living a life of misery, knowing that even if
> situations get better your mind will always be
> naturally gloomy?

Write poetry. Some of best poets and writers have been really depressed and suicidal. That way at least you have a chance of being famous if you do eventually off yourself.

Shit Fucker Wrote:
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> Getting tired of people saying that others have it
> worse off and that life has a purpose. Mental
> illness is mental illness and sometimes it's
> untreatable. What's worse, ending your existence
> or living a life of misery, knowing that even if
> situations get better your mind will always be
> naturally gloomy?


Thank you!
If you're a person who doesn't understand this, then you're a person who shouldn't be making stupid judgemental comments. And if you are one of those people who don't understand why someone would want to kill themself, then seriously be thankful. Because that means that your life isn't as hopeless & shitty as ours.
Personally, I'm tired of the "everything gets better", "don't kill yourself" shit. Some of us are really tired of living with mental illnesses that will never go away. Being a REAL burden to the few people who love us. I'm 33 years old, and have been suffering for a long time. I don't want to live like this anymore. I've tried to OD; it doesn't work. So, this time I'm going to save up money (because of my illnesses I have no savings or credit cards), buy a gun and pull the trigger. Thank you for the people on this forum who have actually been helpful.

H&K Guy Wrote:
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> Do not kill yourself.
>
> It is selfish and will ruin the lives of everyone
> that loves, cares about, and has befriended you.
>
> Get help by calling the Suicide Prevention
> Hotline.
>
> But if you ever reach the level of complete
> selfishness that makes you determined to kill
> yourself - please participate in the Republican
> 'Climate Change ...
>


I think it is way more selfish to tell people who are genuinely enduring endless pain & suffering every day of their life to not kill themselves because others will feel hurt. The few who care about me, whom I am a burden to, would be sad, sure. But then they could get on with their lives. Me? With my mental illnesses, my life will NEVER get better. I will NEVER stop being a burden. I will NEVER stop suffering.
You obviously have no idea what that's like.
SO SHUT THE HELL UP.

if you are a liberal democrat, I would suggest any and all mentioned options are an excellent means to fuck off for good.

For some reason I've met quite a few suicide survivors. I've also tried to off myself two times and couldn't do it. Now I'm 34 and realize that the intense suicidal pain will slowly pass, and come back, and then pass again, but I'll always be clinically depressed. It's just who I am. But I will die, and some times thats a great comfort. I made a deal with myself when I was 23 that I would fight my way trough another year, and if I could, that exact date next year I was allowed to kill myself. I did this for several years (obviously), and every year I felt I somehow might fight trough another year. Well, in the beginning it was days. Then weeks. Then months. You get it. I just slowly came to realize, I actually WILL die: and thats it, we all will, thats the only true justice in the world. We all die.

Not so long ago one of my friends still killed himself, and I can honestly say I understand.

It's hell to get trough shitty suicidal depression and mental illness. No one can demand that someone else should go trough hell so THEY won't feel pain. I still cried my eyeballs out over him. But I still sort of understand.

I rembember my father and my sister at my hospital bed after my last suicide attempt, the raw pain and helplessness they felt.

I just have to fight trough it no matter what. But it's hard, and somtimes...

sometimes it helps just reading threads like this one ;-)
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"Do not kill yourself.

It is selfish and will ruin the lives of everyone that loves, cares about, and has befriended you."

First of all, people move on. They do it all the time.

Second of all, those of us who are so "sefish" that we're ready to do ourselves in because we've had enough of being on the bottom of everybody else's shit and totally unable to crawl out from underneath years of psychopathic abusers are tired of carrying all the crap. Sorry we are so weak and stupid in life but, We're ready to go. Maybe the people who keep wanting us to be strong enough to carry all this shit when we really just can't anymore are the selfish ones? If it makes you feel better and helps you get on with your "ruined lives" that we're leaving behind, just consider that WE are finally out from under lifetimes of nothing but pain that we just could not carry anymore. Suicide hotlines, doctors and professionals of all kinds just couldn't fix us. Our relentless abusers just looked too good to the rest of the world for US to be believed. Instead of feeling bad, feel better for us. We just couldn't keep carrying the world on our shoulders to make everyone else feel better. You have your life. Enjoy it, get on with it. We got what we wanted. Relief that we couldn't find anywhere else.

Thanks for the tips.

Ready to check out myself.

I'm generally against suicide, because I believe that everyone has something to offer, even those going through profound mental illness and pain and suffering. At the very least, you can serve by helping the medical and psychological community understand your illness.

However, if you're going to go, and you're of a certain level of maturity (say, at least 25-30, having given life a chance), and you've committed to the fact that you're going to do it anyway, please observe the following...

1) don't take anyone with you
2) limit exposing children to your remains
3) take care of your belongings BEFORE - minimize the impact on your family

Dear Gunny, and all others who are seriously considering suicide,

First, I want to apologize for all of the stupid people who have been actually suggesting methods for you to kill yourself, without offering any love or compassion to you. True active suicidal ideation is the lowest spot of pain that exists in human existence. I am so sorry that you are in such a place of pain and hopelessness.
I know that you really don't want to die- you really want to be happy, to be loved, to know how to smile and to have fun, to be loved by someone in a relationship, to have friends, and to feel comfortable in your own skin.
I am so sorry that you have been deceived into believing that you are no good, and that there is no hope. You have a spiritual enemy, an opponent to your soul and your well-being, and he desires nothing for you other than sheer misery and unhappiness.
First, please call 1 (800) 273-8255 at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, even if you have already given it a chance before. There are many people there who know exactly how you feel, and oftentimes doing that kind of work is what keeps them from entering that dark place themselves. If you don't feel a connection with the person that you are talking with, ask to be transferred to someone else (a male or female or whatever it is that will bring you comfort).
Second, you may email me anytime and I will email you everyday and encourage you to bring you hope and a friendship because I too have struggled with feeling like I don't belong here and that things will never change. My email address is traviskenny79@gmail.com. Just the fact that you are sincerely suicidal places you at the top of my friendships list- It makes you valuable and worthwhile to me. This life if tough, no doubt, and some of us don't get dealt a fair hand compared to others. There are a million things that can go wrong that can cause us to want to not be here anymore. Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Please email me anytime that you like and I will be your genuine friend and supporter. I live in La Mirada, CA and I would love to hang out with you if you are ever in the area. People like us need each other, and the more that we unite and encourage one another, the more that we find out that it's really everyone else that's mentally ill. How could you not be saddened by the world and the shape that it's in? How could you be so calloused and insensitive as to not let these things depress and affect you? Whoever you are, know that you are worth it, and that you are special in the eyes of the One who made you. Whether you believe it or not, you are being attacked and lied to by the enemy of your soul. There are endless options for you to find the hope that you had before these thoughts entered your mind. Together, people like us can find the strength and the courage to carry on. Again, I am so sorry for whoever has hurt you, rejected you, ignored you, bullied you, made fun of you, or harmed you in your life. You are special in the eyes of Him who made you- more special than you will ever know. I look forward to getting to know you.

Sincerely,

Travis J. Kenny

Rockstar Wrote:
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> I'm generally against suicide, because I believe
> that everyone has something to offer, even those
> going through profound mental illness and pain and
> suffering. At the very least, you can serve by
> helping the medical and psychological community
> understand your illness.
>
> However, if you're going to go, and you're of a
> certain level of maturity (say, at least 25-30,
> having given life a chance), and you've committed
> to the fact that you're going to do it anyway,
> please observe the following...
>
> 1) don't take anyone with you
> 2) limit exposing children to your remains
> 3) take care of your belongings BEFORE - minimize
> the impact on your family


This is bad advice. I too am against suicide, but if you're going to do it here are some better requests to observe:

1) Please do take some bad guys with you. Whoever you can take down, be it Isis, Al Queda, Taliban, etc. Just kill some filthy Muzzie dogs when you go. If possible try and target their leaders.

2) Do it outside this country. You will not be needing money in the afterlife, so use your savings or take out a loan to travel to the middle east for the act.

3) Don't kill any innocent people or even "innocent" Muslimes if possible.

With all the suicides that Americans commit every year, it is about time some good came of it. Make you last act something that will ensure a proud legacy, not simply a ball-less selfish self-extinguishing. You may think you deserve to die, but there are others far more deserving. Share the experience with them.

That's terrible advice. Kill no one. Not even yourself.

You clearly don't understand suffering. Pull your head out of your ass. If you knew what you're talking about, you wouldn't say "Other people have it worse and are still happy". If someone close to you died, would it make you feel better if a person said to you, well, I had a loss too so don't feel bad. How does that make someone who is suffering feel better? THINK about it.

vengeance Wrote:
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> You clearly don't understand suffering. Pull your
> head out of your ass. If you knew what you're
> talking about, you wouldn't say "Other people have
> it worse and are still happy". If someone close to
> you died, would it make you feel better if a
> person said to you, well, I had a loss too so
> don't feel bad. How does that make someone who is
> suffering feel better? THINK about it.
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don't go alone Wrote:
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> This is bad advice. I too am against suicide, but
> if you're going to do it here are some better
> requests to observe:
>
> 1) Please do take some bad guys with you. Whoever
> you can take down, be it Isis, Al Queda, Taliban,
> etc. Just kill some filthy Muzzie dogs when you
> go. If possible try and target their leaders.
>
> 2) Do it outside this country. You will not be
> needing money in the afterlife, so use your
> savings or take out a loan to travel to the middle
> east for the act.
>
> 3) Don't kill any innocent people or even
> "innocent" Muslimes if possible.
>
> With all the suicides that Americans commit every
> year, it is about time some good came of it. Make
> you last act something that will ensure a proud
> legacy, not simply a ball-less selfish
> self-extinguishing. You may think you deserve to
> die, but there are others far more deserving.
> Share the experience with them.


I like this advice. Make your life worthwhile in your last act. Take some ISIS with you.

Thanks for the advice friends, see y'all in the afterlife if there is one :)

Thinking about ending it with a 38 handgun in the mouth, in the back yard, a note posted on the front door informing 1st responders to what they can expect upon walking into the back yard.

However, after reading these blogs, I agree, I want a little trauma to people left behind as possible. So I am thinking of wearing several rubber swim caps and donning a heavy duty motorcycle helmut or bike helmut....finally with a heavy guage plastic bag(s)over my head to reduce the scattering of bone, brain, and blood.

Any other thoughts welcome.

gunny Wrote:
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> This is a serious question:
>
> I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at
> all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with,
> guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price
> range?
>
> Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head,
> through the temple, up through the mouth, or
> through the chest?


.44 magnum or .357 magnum

oh i have faith in you obama, keep sending me your suicide messages, put it in the school books, revise history books to be liberal. forbid 1984 and other such porn books. dont have a mental problem? the county can say you do and force inject you anyway!

oh i trust you i know your books are all good
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look it white make bills waste all day making a few. damn you should have ordered your press from china. that's not how you do it!
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gunny Wrote:
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> This is a serious question:
>
> I want to end it. I know nothing about guns, at
> all. What is the best gun to kill yourself with,
> guaranteed to do the job, and what is the price
> range?
>
> Also, is it better to shoot yourself in the head,
> through the temple, up through the mouth, or
> through the chest?

if you are a liberal democrat, any one will do!

I hope the OP found the info they were looking for.

To all the others who feel the need to criticize, why bother posting? Does it make you feel better about yourself?

And to all those who think there's always hope, no there isn't always hope. Great for you if you've been there and found a way out but some of us have no way out. You don't know what the next guy's problems are. Suicide hotlines are no different than shrink tanks. They pretend to care because they're getting paid. They don't give a shit about you. Why should they? They don't know you and your existence has fuck-all bearing on the rest of their life. If there's a hotline that gives step-by-step instructions on the surest methods for ending this prison sentence the rest of you want to call life, then I'd be the first one dialing it,

Selfish due to 'friends' and 'family's' feelings? Bullshit. Me personally I have no friends. Haven't had in a long time - years now - and to be honest I can't think of a single person I could ever look back on and say they were a true friend. I don't speak to anyone. I learned a long time ago that so-called friends are only in it as long as you have something they can benefit from. They don't give a fuck about you and will throw you under the bus to get ahead first chance they get. That's just human nature and believing anything else just makes you an idiot. And I don't give a shit about what some asshole on a forum from the other side of the country thinks he's being a friend with his jesus loves you bullshit.

"Everyone's life has purpose." Really? Maybe that's true. And maybe for some of us our life's purpose is the very act of suicide - to send a message to the ones left behind, those that bother to notice or give a fuck.

What purpose does my life have? I'd love for someone to give me a clue. I'm a 42 year old faggot who's been a failure my entire life. Everything I touch turns to shit. I didn't ask to be a faggot, just another one of those curses I got branded with from birth. Tried my best not to be, tried being interested in females, never worked. It made me suicidal in my teens but I managed to convince myself that it wasn't a big deal. I was able to hide it well enough from most people. By my mid 20s I knew I wasn't perfect enough to associate with other gay dudes. Didn't have a sculpted body and perfect looks or a 10 inch dick, didn't have an endless bank account or drive a sports car, was just a standard nobody that struggled from one dead-end retail job to the next pretending to wear a smile. Kept lying to myself that eventually I'd meet someone I could really connect with and shit wouldn't be so bad. Bullshit. Wasted my life on that shit. Tried to better myself and get a college education so I could stop working dead-end jobs for minimum wage and build a career. Actually had what I thought was a relationship at that point. Went to school. Biggest fucking mistake I ever made. 2 of the biggest that is.

Now I'm $130K in student loan debt and been unemployed for over 7 years. No one will hire me, not even fucking mcdonalds. The only thing I own is my truck and even that is 13 fucking years old. The so-called relationship ended right when school did. He got sick - appendicitis, almost died - I missed a week of school while he was trying to recover from surgery and I was takin care of him. So school kicked me out cause he wasn't family so they didn't approve my absence. Since I wasn't in school anymore I had no more student loans, which were paying for most of my living expenses, so as soon as my "boyfriend" of 3 years got better he took off, since there was no free rent for him anymore.

So now I'm 42 with insane debt, nothing of substance to offer anybody living in my parent's fucking basement. Don't qualify for any kind of assistance for shit and have to sell tin cans just to buy ramen. Yeah I can go dig ditches or do some bullshit job like that, but for what? So I can continue to scrape by alone in a life I fucking hate? It's not going to pay off my loan debt, so I'd just be working to eat and perpetuate a pointless existence. I have no kids, no dependents, no purpose, no interest in anything and I'm sick of being here. The book definition of a useless eater. I've determined that I can get a loan on my truck title to at least pay for my funeral expenses, it's worth about that much.

Right now I'm just trying to figure out what the best method for taking myself out is. I have a 9mm, don't have any intention of using it on anyone but myself, just don't want to fuck up. There's also the helium method, but I've heard mistakes with that too. Don't have a garage so the exhaust trick won't work.

In order for there to be light, there has to be darkness.

In order for there to be winners, there has to be losers.

Some of us are meant to be losers.

I am so glad to see caring people on here with loving and kind words. To the guy that posted a kind message and gave his email address, I applaud you. I hope the OP contacts you and finds a different path. You were sent by God himself today. To the guy who is gay and considering suicide, please don't. I have a gay child and feel your pain. I raised my kids that I would always love them no matter what. Gay or straight. Not all families have done that and I'm sorry if this was your experience. If you don't feel connected then maybe think of moving to a gay friendly area. Capital Hill Seattle is good. San Francisco. Go where you feel a connection. I know the clichés : life gets better. Don't do a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Etc. The thing about it....its true! Here is the 411 of suicide: true story. A man I know and love was best friends with his sister in law. She was 8 1/2 months pregnant with her first child. She shot herself in the head an hour before her baby shower. Didn't work. So she shot herself in the abdoman killing her baby boy. Shot herself in the chest and finally died. The gun she used was a gift from her brother in law. HE was the one who had to go in the house and clean up her brains scattered all over the walls and ceiling from his gun. But before all that, her sister came to the house to set up for the baby shower and found her shot all to hell. This led to many years of alcoholism and eating disorders for the sister. Finally she went to rehab and got clean. She was never the same though ànd her husband took her in to be tested. Turns out she had dementia from the alcoholism. She was in her late 40's. She died a year ago from choking on her own vomit in a nursing home. Her husband still tells the story of cleaning up brains 23 years after. He is still traumatized. Please. Think of other solutions before you act. The ripple effects last for decades.

BeenThere84...Your story has a few holes in it. She shot herself in the head, then the abdomen and then the chest. It didn't work when she shot herself in the head but yet the brother had to "clean up her brains scattered all over the walls and ceiling". Explain to us how this occurred. If her brains were in this state how the hell did she have the ability to shoot herself two additional times? Then you say the husband cleaned up the brains. Was it the brother or the husband. Or are you saying the husband was married to his sister? Incest or brother in law? Sounds to me as if you are writing a story that is just a bunch of BS and making it dramatic thinking it will change the mind of those at the point of wanting to terminate their lives. Bottom line is suicide is not a problem in the United States. Just over 42,000 people end their lives each year. This is 0.0001 of the adult population. A lot of these people have a very good reason for doing it. But you know what it doesn't matter if we think the reason is valid or not. They have the right to make this decision and they alone. uselesshomo was right. Most people that tell you they're your friends only tell you that when you have something to offer them. We are all selfish. No one does anything without a selfish reason. People give money to pan handlers on the street corner not to make the pan handler feel better but to make themselves feel better. The act of suicide is part of human nature. Always has been and always will be. If you want to end your life, do it. If you have doubts, talk to someone. However, I agree the hotlines are a joke. They are paid and trained to negotiate you out of doing the deed and they feel good about themselves in doing so. Of course, most that get talked out of it continue to feel like crap for many additional years. But that doesn't matter as long as the helpline attendant feels good, right?

Vexxed. I agree with your meme. Useless Homo --I hope you are still around.
We all go through difficult times .. some say Take things 1 day at a time .. some people have to just take things 1 minute at a time! -- just getting through the next moment! ...
I've heard emotions anonymous, EA group is very helpful in gaining a new perspective.

Eesh, Stabitha, Sharky8 who is clearly yucky24 or stabitha, and faggged, all kill yourself. Immediately. Society will appreciate it.

all of you faggots Wrote:
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> Eesh, Stabitha, Sharky8 who is clearly yucky24 or
> stabitha, and faggged, all kill yourself.
> Immediately. Society will appreciate it.


Written by Gerrymanderer2 under one of his many names

I know I am coming to this party (along the lines of the mask of the red death) awfully late, but it struck me that I have seen so many, "well-meaning", I hope, but vacuous, or even worse, responses like, "There is still light at the end of the tunnel." Yeah, and maybe it is a train headed for you. You might want to make your own decision on how to depart, since I don't think all trains are bound for glory, even if you don't have to pay for the ticket. Then again, we have the All-American xenophobes who weigh in with the likes of "Please do take some bad guys with you. Whoever you can take down, be it Isis, Al Qaeda, Taliban, etc. Just kill some filthy Muzzie dogs when you go. If possible try and target their leaders." So we can basically tell folks to "cheer up, that train you see coming might be help on the way, to a completely different, "so glad you decided to become a one person army against anyone you deem wrong in their thinking or actions based on . . . I have no clue - their last name, their skin color?" It seems difficult to find an actual answer that is based on anything but personal faith in humanity, life, or the opposite. If you want a decent place to start your consideration, I would suggest, http://www.newhealthadvisor.com/Easiest-Way-to-Kill-Yourself.html. This site will not trivialize the issue, it will offer alternatives, but it also gives the statistically most likely means to work, (and not), how long you may be in pain before you finally expire, amount of agony, lethality (what are the odds you will die or end up in really bad shape). I would never encourage someone to kill themselves, but then again, if they were going to do so, I would want to make sure they know what to do for the least pain, least time in pain, and least likelihood of ending up a vegetable that others will care for until they actually die, possibly many years later.

Question to the man who grabs spark plugs to cure depression, are you serious? As an experimental psychologist in training, I am legitimately curious. Shock therapy does help depression, for reasons that remain a mystery. But I've never heard of anyone who is DIYing it. How do you not lock up, preventing you from letting go of the wire? What does it feel like? How did you even think to start doing this?

Oh, and as for the suicide advice, I don't know much about guns (which is why I came here, though I am a member of the green party I sincerely thank you gun enthusiasts for your expertise). But I can say that be careful to not aim too much for the front of your head. There is more space in there in sinus cavities before your brain than you might think. Even a shotgun won't kill you if you aim straight up (though you will wish it had). At the temple you have a chance of just hitting your optic nerve. And that's a real bummer. Just, really plan out that angle.

And as for the mess, I heard of a cop who did it by wrapping a towel around his head first and shooting himself in the bathtub. Pretty polite way to go, I think.

Why use a gun? Rope is much more cost effective.

I agree. Do it outdoors and so remote that you will have time to bleed out. The last thing you want is to survive but you don't want to be a burden by being a gimp any more than the guilt you will leave with your loved ones after they find you.

Do not use a 12 gauge to your heart. I know a guy that survived as the shot deflected off of his ribs and he survived.

I think a large caliber handgun thru the forehead is the best way. If you do it thru the temple you may survive for a while and that causes more heart ache for your family.

I have been where you are. I hope you can give this 48 hours. Maybe you can change your direction. But if you can't please do it so that the pain to your family and friends is minimized.

Signed, your anonymous friend that is hurting like your are. Maybe tomorrow will be different and we can make it. Just give it 48 hours.

Wish I could give you a hug like the anonymous hug that i got. Let me know if I can give you a virtual hug.



backpacker Wrote:
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> BEH Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > Oh yes, but very messy.
> >
> > Don't forget, SOMEONE has to clean up..
>
>
> Best thing to do would be to drive up to skyline
> drive and hike about a mile into the woods before
> you do it. After they find your car a couple days
> later the buzzards will show the park service
> employees your location and by then there will not
> be much left for them to bag up and haul out of
> there. You can always rent a car if you need to.

Read my post.

read my post

BEH Wrote:
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> I'd say hold the barrel of the gun to your
> forehead at a slightly downward angle.
>
> Make sure the caliber is at least 38 or 357 , I
> wouldn't trust a 22 or a 25, you want to make sure
> your brain is really decimated.
>
> The price range should not be a consideration, buy
> it on credit, who is going to collect once you're
> blown to eternity?
>
> Thank you for not commiting suicide with a
> train,or jumping off an overpass onto a highway,
> it ruins the day for thousands of commuters.

do NOT do this. your forehead is one of the hardest, most durable pieces of bone in your body and the most likely to deflect a firearm round. you're very likely to end up brain damaged with a significantly worse quality of life than that which you are trying to escape. don't put it in your mouth either, it's very difficult to aim correctly.

the best method is to hold the weapon vertical, and lean your head over it such that the barrel is pressing into the bottom of your chin where it meets your neck. tuck your chin in as much as possible, and try to align things such that the weapon is pointing straight up towards the top of your skull. this will help ensure that the shot inflicts maximum damage to your brain and brainstem, and will also help to destroy the neck arteries and windpipe. this way, even if you miss the critical parts of your brain it is probable that you will bleed or suffocate to death.

good luck op!

also, in terms of weaponry, the most effective type of firearm is a shotgun. the force of the charge & the spread of the shot will ensure that your entire brain as well as throat is destroyed. 12 ga buckshot or larger is recommended. if you do not have access to a shotgun, sources recommend a high-caliber rifle chambered for big game hunting or antipersonnel. in terms of handguns, 9mm or above is preferable. personally i wouldn't go for anything below .45 caliber, .357 or .44 would be better. however, if you can get a handgun there's really no reason you couldn't get a shotgun. they're far more effective and less likely to leave you still alive and full of regret

mentally ill Wrote:
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> Shit Fucker Wrote:
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> > Getting tired of people saying that others have
> it
> > worse off and that life has a purpose. Mental
> > illness is mental illness and sometimes it's
> > untreatable. What's worse, ending your
> existence
> > or living a life of misery, knowing that even
> if
> > situations get better your mind will always be
> > naturally gloomy?
>
>
> Thank you!
> If you're a person who doesn't understand this,
> then you're a person who shouldn't be making
> stupid judgemental comments. And if you are one of
> those people who don't understand why someone
> would want to kill themself, then seriously be
> thankful. Because that means that your life isn't
> as hopeless & shitty as ours.
> Personally, I'm tired of the "everything gets
> better", "don't kill yourself" shit. Some of us
> are really tired of living with mental illnesses
> that will never go away. Being a REAL burden to
> the few people who love us. I'm 33 years old, and
> have been suffering for a long time. I don't want
> to live like this anymore. I've tried to OD; it
> doesn't work. So, this time I'm going to save up
> money (because of my illnesses I have no savings
> or credit cards), buy a gun and pull the trigger.
> Thank you for the people on this forum who have
> actually been helpful.

agreed. there is really nothing more selfish or arrogant than these piece of shit self-help wannabes with their after-school-special garbage. everyone has a right to terminate life when they judge it has outlived its enjoyability - it's one of the few rights that nobody can or should take from you. the OP asked a serious question. please respect the intelligence of suicidal people, don't talk down as though we're fucking children who just don't know any better. we've been grappling with this stuff far longer than you have

I'm just curious (I know I got to this forum way too late) if you survived or ended up doing it? I really need help with this and I'd like to talk to you if you're still here..:/ please. Email me. Oneeee929@gmail.com

Gerry

Hey could I possibly talk to you? Email me please. Oneeee929@gmail.com

Gerry none this trump winning is worth you blowing out your brains.

Whati Da Heil Wrote:
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> I agree. Do it outdoors and so remote that you
> will have time to bleed out. The last thing you
> want is to survive but you don't want to be a
> burden by being a gimp any more than the guilt you
> will leave with your loved ones after they find
> you.
>
> Do not use a 12 gauge to your heart. I know a guy
> that survived as the shot deflected off of his
> ribs and he survived.
>
> I think a large caliber handgun thru the forehead
> is the best way. If you do it thru the temple you
> may survive for a while and that causes more heart
> ache for your family.
>
> I have been where you are. I hope you can give
> this 48 hours. Maybe you can change your
> direction. But if you can't please do it so that
> the pain to your family and friends is minimized.
>
> Signed, your anonymous friend that is hurting like
> your are. Maybe tomorrow will be different and we
> can make it. Just give it 48 hours.
>
> Wish I could give you a hug like the anonymous hug
> that i got. Let me know if I can give you a
> virtual hug.
>
>
>
> backpacker Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > BEH Wrote:
> >
> --------------------------------------------------
>
> > -----
> > > Oh yes, but very messy.
> > >
> > > Don't forget, SOMEONE has to clean up..
> >
> >
> > Best thing to do would be to drive up to
> skyline
> > drive and hike about a mile into the woods
> before
> > you do it. After they find your car a couple
> days
> > later the buzzards will show the park service
> > employees your location and by then there will
> not
> > be much left for them to bag up and haul out of
> > there. You can always rent a car if you need to.






Hey could I possibly talk to you? Email me please. Oneeee929@gmail.com

If anyone plans on killing themselves do the USA a favor and do it like suicide bombers do, except against them...Im a fighter no how fuckin miserable i refuse to kill myself, but I really would like to see american suicide bombers going after our enemies, just like they do us...so depressed friends of mine, miserable fucks, kill 2 birds with one stone and be an american hero at same time

1. Donate blood to red cross
2. Take some blood thinners
3. A few drinks
4. 9mm with a hollow point
5. Gun in mouth pointed at your medulla oblongata

If your not dead instantly because your brain is mashed potatoes then I'd say you'd bleed out very quickly. Should flow like a red river with how much less blood after donating and how thinned out your blood will be.

I stumbled upon this thread while searching for the best gun to use to shoot myself with. It might sound stupid to some but I know absolutely nothing about guns and don't want to end up alive with half a face.

Anyway, no, there isn't always hope. My husband died 4 months ago in an accident and I just want to end the pain I'm in. I've given it time and I don't feel better I feel worse each day. I seriously can't live with this pain anymore. Maybe I'm being selfish but I can't do it, I guess I'm weak. Life is torture. I'm done. I'm thinking shotgun to the chest, I'm not certain yet.

I have tried literally everything to make my life better for years. I have so much Love in my heart for others, maybe that's part of my problem. Don't judge or give an opinion you know nothing about, you have not walked in my shoes or taken my path in life. Sometimes this is the only way out and best for everyone. I'm so tired of the daily struggle to keep going. I just need out, life is not a choice for me. Taking my life is not selfish, it's not something one wants to do it is a need. Why suffer everyday when there is another option. It angers me when you say "love in your heart" Obviously you know nothing.

I couldn't have said it better. Thank you.

dungeon smash Wrote:
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> also, in terms of weaponry, the most effective
> type of firearm is a shotgun. the force of the
> charge & the spread of the shot will ensure that
> your entire brain as well as throat is destroyed.
> 12 ga buckshot or larger is recommended. if you
> do not have access to a shotgun, sources recommend
> a high-caliber rifle chambered for big game
> hunting or antipersonnel. in terms of handguns,
> 9mm or above is preferable. personally i wouldn't
> go for anything below .45 caliber, .357 or .44
> would be better. however, if you can get a
> handgun there's really no reason you couldn't get
> a shotgun. they're far more effective and less
> likely to leave you still alive and full of regret

Would a .38 hollow point right in the forehead do the trick?

bought the stuff today, thanks for the help guys. sucks that helium didn't work... i went through a ton of effort to buy an old bottle of it before they started all adding extra air in but it still was impure and didn't work. have a good one :)

mentally ill Wrote:
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> H&K Guy Wrote:
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> > Do not kill yourself.
> >
> > It is selfish and will ruin the lives of
> everyone
> > that loves, cares about, and has befriended
> you.
> >
> > Get help by calling the Suicide Prevention
> > Hotline.
> >
> > But if you ever reach the level of complete
> > selfishness that makes you determined to kill
> > yourself - please participate in the Republican
> > 'Climate Change ...
> >
>
>
> I think it is way more selfish to tell people who
> are genuinely enduring endless pain & suffering
> every day of their life to not kill themselves
> because others will feel hurt. The few who care
> about me, whom I am a burden to, would be sad,
> sure. But then they could get on with their lives.
> Me? With my mental illnesses, my life will NEVER
> get better. I will NEVER stop being a burden. I
> will NEVER stop suffering.
> You obviously have no idea what that's like.
> SO SHUT THE HELL UP.

I agree with you. Nobody will EVER understand what it's like to be me, and I see only TWO WAYS out of the hell I will soon find myself in eventually: death or winning Powerball or Mega Millions.

What is wrong with you people. I would think you would try to help this person. My Brother just killed himself with a shot to the head. Think of all the people that are now suffering. I think most of you people are evil people

Over the years of driving for a living there have been cases where people that jump off a bridge onto a busy highway infront of tractor trailers, this is a great way to piss people off.

I don't condone-----but I understand.

Even at this stage, this was an amusing thread.

For a very long time I've thought about this end. I doubt anyone would suspect I'm contemplating it, which explains a lot. Primarily I've thought about how it would impact various people, how to best leave them money for the financial ruin. Long ago I gave up with a lasting legacy or thoughts of myself. That's the stickling pint for many I assume.

How to best do it so they are least impacted, no trauma, not in their face to speak of.

I've contemplated this for so long it's silly I'm still at this stage. For over 30 years I've contemplated suicide, and nobody knows it, or why.

I'm not sure if I'll leave a note, because I sure as shit don;t want to make others sad, and it's not their fault anyway.

So I'm on my way to find the proper solution. There's no easy way out as far as I know, it will be messy. I'd prefer to eliminate it, possibly with a heart shot. That's what I would prefer anyway.

For those that think others are evil and dare laugh, hey, it's a very big world out there. If people contemplating suicide shock their friends and family that such thoughts are real, how serious can people on an internet forum be? I would never take it personally myself.

I actually say Oh Shit every morning I awake.

I have A 22 put in my mouth and aimed will it do the job

Suicide isn't selfish you don't even know anything about it. Most ppl who kill themselves don't have anyone in their life worth living for and are suffering more than you will ever know. Be grateful you don't feel what others feel. You think brining suicidal is fun? You think it's easy and selfish? You think none of us have ever tried to save the world and help others? You think we haven't tried other options? Stop beig so ignorant and hateful. You are part of the problem. Yeah we are going to feel so much better being called selfish. We really want to stay in a world suffering with all of you hateful perpetrators.

perfect way to put it

Brittany Wrote:
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> Suicide isn't selfish you don't even know anything
> about it. Most ppl who kill themselves don't have
> anyone in their life worth living for and are
> suffering more than you will ever know. Be
> grateful you don't feel what others feel. You
> think brining suicidal is fun? You think it's easy
> and selfish? You think none of us have ever tried
> to save the world and help others? You think we
> haven't tried other options? Stop beig so ignorant
> and hateful. You are part of the problem. Yeah we
> are going to feel so much better being called
> selfish. We really want to stay in a world
> suffering with all of you hateful perpetrators.

I always wonder why these people who have no friends or relatives and nothing to live for, don't just do something else drastic, but reversible such as disappear. They could go to Nepal and join a monastary, go to some isolated islands like Fiji, the Seychelles, Cormoros, Hebrides, etc. Or even become a hermit in some isolated part of the US -- even PA or VA has places you could live and never be found. Just disappear and start completely over.

So what your saying is that don't do it those ways because. It would ruin their day. What a selfish Bitch for only thinking of other people. No matter how they choose to end their life. It's going to affect them the most. Who gives a fuck of the people that make a big deal out of it. You have no clue what they are going through.

The only people that would be effected would be family and friends. Other people are just being ass holes. Their just pissed because they were late for work. Fuck what you think and think of the people it truly affected

i wonder how you are now.

I was attempting to figure out why no one would just say PLEASE just do not do it. I came to this site for a reason. But by judging everyone wants to either make fun or like the mgr of a place said when one of his employees wants to commit suicide "Don't do it on the property etc" I feel so bad for those who might not today but may in the future. DO NOT JUDGE ANOTHER PERSONS PATH LEST YOU HAVE TRAVELED THAT SAME PATH.

ANNA Wrote:
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> I was attempting to figure out why no one would
> just say PLEASE just do not do it. I came to this
> site for a reason. But by judging everyone wants
> to either make fun or like the mgr of a place said
> when one of his employees wants to commit suicide
> "Don't do it on the property etc" I feel so bad
> for those who might not today but may in the
> future. DO NOT JUDGE ANOTHER PERSONS PATH LEST
> YOU HAVE TRAVELED THAT SAME PATH.


Cuz u need to seek real help other than retards on a message board.
I would think most people dont want to see anyone kill themselves, but on this board u never know.

Shotgun, like everyone else said.

But first try this- go to every family member you have, tell them you need help you want to kill yourself. If no one helps you, THEN You can kill yourself.

If your family doesn't have your back, it's a cold world out here.

if you're going to take someone with you how about some bankers or insurance execs? higher up the chain the better.


forget isis, that's just a fairy tale invented by the above to take the heat for them

d letterman Wrote:
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> if you're going to take someone with you how about
> some bankers or insurance execs? higher up the
> chain the better.
>
>
> forget isis, that's just a fairy tale invented by
> the above to take the heat for them

Fuck you, you idiot. Living in Fairfax County you should know better. We ARE the above, and ISIS is the enemy. If you aren't on board with that, move to some backwater town in a backwater state, or better yet move to Afganistan. You might get lucky and get shot or bombed by yours truly.

Susan Sawle Wrote:
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> What is wrong with you people. I would think you
> would try to help this person. My Brother just
> killed himself with a shot to the head. Think of
> all the people that are now suffering. I think
> most of you people are evil people


Fuck off bitch, besides, I know first hand the shotgun to the brainstem method works, it actually worked for me when I used it on myself, the question is, wtf is wrong with YOU holier-than-nower

Bliss Mcarthy Wrote:
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> Susan Sawle Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > What is wrong with you people. I would think
> you
> > would try to help this person. My Brother just
> > killed himself with a shot to the head. Think
> of
> > all the people that are now suffering. I think
> > most of you people are evil people
>
>
> Fuck off bitch, besides, I know first hand the
> shotgun to the brainstem method works, it actually
> worked for me when I used it on myself, the
> question is, wtf is wrong with YOU
> holier-than-nower


I meant holier-than-thou, maybe your brother is happier now/maybe even deserved it. Don't judge bitch and fuck you. You judgemental types are shit and you are the evil one. Have a good day!

Enrico Palazzo Wrote:
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> I would think a shotgun upwards in the mouth would
> do the job.


But you might air condition the house too?

Kywdb Wrote:
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> Enrico Palazzo Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> > I would think a shotgun upwards in the mouth
> would
> > do the job.
>
>
> But you might air condition the house too?


No but your can blow me you mexican faggot

Listen stupid bitch dont shoot urself through the chest u retarded son of a bitch why the fuck would u shoot ursefl in the chest if the brain is gone then u will not be alive so shoot the back of you head to cut off the connection it is an instant death and before u shoot urself make sure to record it and have ur parent upload it to social media

Why are you guys fighting so much. It's silly. With all of the potential failure of a shotgun, would hanging in the woods be less prone to absolute misery if you fail?

Kinda worried about surviving with half a brain..

For those of you telling us we all have something to offer. Yeah, tell that to the companies we can't find a job from or the student/car/mortgage loans er can't a ford to pay..

Hey, wow... i am really disturbed reading some of these responses. i actually understand every perspective completely. but it is so wrong some of them.. the people coming after the ones that have suffered to much to bare anymore. you have no idea of their pain. you guys are missing vital pieces of the puzzle here. its amazing how clearly you can see one side and be missing the entire other part of it and you're representing exactly what is wrong with the world and why these people would want to leave it even more. i tried to die with pills and so on and even bought a gun years ago.. it was stolen.. i couldn't successfully die and I've been abused so badly too many ways. anyone that has any advice for anyone else.. remember that you are not living their life. you have no idea the wiring in their brain the way they feel things.. what they've experienced.. etc. you have no clue.

I would like to talk to some of you too. the ones that had a reaction about what a few people said.. so stupid.. i would have had a similar reaction. the ones who sounded like i would have sounded saying "I'm too afraid to fuck up the gun shot and end up suffering even worse when its already been unbearable for how long.. we cant risk any more pain.. we cant take any more and we're still here.. you smug fucks who comment as if you know the pain these people are going through while you can still live thinking you know.. thinking you know when you probably have suffered through nothing in comparison. i wish we could have the science to compare because we'd see who the true coward is... someone who thinks they've been through stuff enough to say such crap to other people like this when in reality the reason you are even saying that is just because you haven't been through shit.

when you go through enough suffering - you develop a sort of true empathy for people.. in my experience..wehn you know the kind of mental and physical pain that can exist out there and how deep that can go.. when you truly know.. you dont go saying things so insensitive and cruel to people.. its just basic mathematics as well.. so remember these people that would say such things.. they think they know.. but they have no idea. its like when you were a little kid and you scraped your knee and thought that was painful. let me be clear - I'm talking about the pathetic people that have attacked these sad sick but very strong people like myself in this thread.

ok, I have typed this very sloppy. sorry, i am just doing this real quick. i have a lot of shit going on and i should have died a long time ago. hard to focus. not very focused right now and this is tough to deal with at any time. but i do believe i have some wisdom regarding all of this. i think most of us could be saved or have a life worth saving. some of us cant or would not be worth it because of the amount of torture and things that have been broken down.. it would take so much work to rewire or fix.. i know this world is so crazy.. so rigged from the start.. doesn't make sense to me. if not a prison... yet we have such disparity.. such variation. how can some people feel such horrible agony and others get to be happy and not even know what this feeling is.. just the comparison and differences in hedonic adaptation and ordinary misery vs true horrifying misery that cant be controlled. my brain and everything i know and have learned will die with me. i could have done so much. i really had so much potential. i wanted to write a book about my life.. i wanted to do something special. i knew i was different.. but it didn't matter.

Shit... reading each thing I've posted so far i may have just confused you guys... eh I'm broken right now..

ah... i wish i could get in contact with some of you.

Shit... reading each thing I've posted so far i may have just confused you guys... eh I'm broken right now..i really wish i could talk to some of you. i have been suicidal for so long. and i did all i could. i tried to tell my story. and i think its understandable when you hear all the details. people just always want to combat you and dying becasue of their own struggles or cant think outside their own box.. sadly there is a weakness in fighting/not accepting too.. when that is the reality.. there are levels to this as well and ... ugh i cant word everything in so many sentences.. i cant say all i want to say in a little paragraph.. the people that are truly weak are here with enough energy to shit all over everything.. and I've got all the info but its so overhwlmeing .. i end up typing like this.. so i cant even make a point and my head is swiss cheese now .. moment to moment the mood changes.. and this is how i wanted to represent myself..no.. so now its all become too overwhelming and i sabotaged typing at all.. because of all the times i dedicated so much time to typing my heart out for nothing..

I am going to bookmark the page and check back here. i wish you all listed your emails as i would try and contact you all. I mean the ones who weren't being shitty and so on.

ANNA Wrote:
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> DO NOT JUDGE ANOTHER PERSONS PATH LEST
> YOU HAVE TRAVELED THAT SAME PATH.


"Don't crticize someone until you've walked a mile in their shoes. Then, you're a mile away, and you have their shoes."
-Steven Wright

I know a decent amount about firearms; I have at least one of every popular caliber pistol, shotgun, and many rifles. Although a .357 will surely kill you, it too is awfully messy. Adolf Hitler bit down on a cyanide pill, it's true, but not being the trusting type, he also shot himself through the temple. When shooting through the temple, you want to make sure to take out as much of your brain as possible, as if you either dissect your brain, or gods help you, don't take out enough OF your brain, you may live on in a persistent vegetative state. To insure death, I'd recommend a semi-jacket hollow point of no smaller than 7.65mm, the caliber der Führer used, and no larger than a 40 S&W. As mentioned before, a 12 gauge shotgun with 00 Buck aimed into the mouth and triggered with either the thumb or toe (ala Kurt Cobain/Earnest Hemmingway) will CERTAINLY do the job, but it's also REALLY messy. I wouldn't sweat worrying about the folks cleaning up your mess, as it's their job and they get paid to, but I'm a really vain guy; I want an open casket funeral. With a shotgun, there's no chance of that. In conclusion, a 7.65mm, 9mm short or 9mm parabellum, or a 40 S&W should do nicely...and use a semi-jacket hollow point to make sure. That will give you the penetration of a ball round as well as some nice mushrooming affect of a hollow point. This posting is probably moot, as you posted four years ago, so are either dead by now or have rethought your situation. Good luck!

Please help by suggesting how to leave with as little a mess as possible.
I am old and in constant pain. I have to stay in bed but can use a wheelchair.
Am a severe burden to my wife.

So I plan to use .38 ammo which is about 30 years old. (Too old?)

I have 2 slabs of foam rubber, about 3 and 6 inches thick.
Should the thicker slab and a 6 inch mattress stop the bullet after shooting thru my heart area?

I will use the thinner slab to surround the entry to keep that splatter down,
but first I will make a small hole to give the bullet free access.

I am very worried about leaving a mess - and stopping the bullet from leaving the apartment. Thanks for your help.

DGD Wrote:
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> Please help by suggesting how to leave with as
> little a mess as possible.
> I am old and in constant pain. I have to stay in
> bed but can use a wheelchair.
> Am a severe burden to my wife.
>
> So I plan to use .38 ammo which is about 30 years
> old. (Too old?)
>
> I have 2 slabs of foam rubber, about 3 and 6
> inches thick.
> Should the thicker slab and a 6 inch mattress stop
> the bullet after shooting thru my heart area?
>
> I will use the thinner slab to surround the entry
> to keep that splatter down,
> but first I will make a small hole to give the
> bullet free access.
>
> I am very worried about leaving a mess - and
> stopping the bullet from leaving the apartment.
> Thanks for your help.

Plus a real man would use a crossbow, right in the eyeball.
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Hey, buddy. I'm here. Let's talk.

Rob, I'm here.

Jimmy D Holla back now Wrote:
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> Hey, buddy. I'm here. Let's talk.

THIS IS A FUCKING GERRYMANDERER POST

HE'S PROBABLY POISONING PEOPLE AND TRYING TO CONVINCE THEM TO KILL THEMSELVES

THIS POST WAS DOA AND HE KEEPS REVIVING IT

Will this do it? https://www.hinterlandoutfitters.com/shopping_cart.php It seems so cheap for a Mag 44.. are they all created equal? I just want to make sure I can't screw it up. No judgments. You don't know what I've been through. I just want it to be over. Only post if you're serious about helping/telling me it will work. I don't want to end up a vegetable.

It's easy to poke fun at people who want to commit suicide. At one time I couldn't understand how anyone would want to kill themselves.Now I know. Just imagine waking up every day (if you can be lucky enough to sleep) and start out your day gasping for air. No matter how many times you clear your throat you still can't breathe. And by not breathing properly due to diabetic complications and severe heart disease you are SLOWLY becoming a vegetable for lack of oxygen (hypoxia) to the brain and other end organs such as the liver,lungs,kidneys etc. I guarantee you, you will be wishing for death and it won't come.It's easy to make sport out of these people,it doesn't have to be a mental illness but physical medical illness that makes you so sick that you've lost all interests in life. You don't think it will ever happen to you?? Think again my friends. No one knows what is in store for them in the future. So I'd think twice before I'd ever make fun of someone for wanting to end themselves. It could be you in the near future. And I grant you that you won't have the guts to off yourselves but sit there gasping for air and going psycho because of that. 12 gauge shot gun with deer slugs or .22 revolver to the back of the head will finish your suffering.

Dr. Kevork Wrote:
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> It's easy to poke fun at people who want to commit
> suicide. At one time I couldn't understand how
> anyone would want to kill themselves.Now I know.
> Just imagine waking up every day (if you can be
> lucky enough to sleep) and start out your day
> gasping for air. No matter how many times you
> clear your throat you still can't breathe. And by
> not breathing properly due to diabetic
> complications and severe heart disease you are
> SLOWLY becoming a vegetable for lack of oxygen
> (hypoxia) to the brain and other end organs such
> as the liver,lungs,kidneys etc. I guarantee you,
> you will be wishing for death and it won't
> come.It's easy to make sport out of these
> people,it doesn't have to be a mental illness but
> physical medical illness that makes you so sick
> that you've lost all interests in life. You don't
> think it will ever happen to you?? Think again my
> friends. No one knows what is in store for them in
> the future. So I'd think twice before I'd ever
> make fun of someone for wanting to end themselves.
> It could be you in the near future. And I grant
> you that you won't have the guts to off yourselves
> but sit there gasping for air and going psycho
> because of that. 12 gauge shot gun with deer slugs
> or .22 revolver to the back of the head will
> finish your suffering.


The best way to deal with someone yapping about suicide is to remind them that "actions speak louder than words" and let them make the correct decision.

People wonder why we want to commit suicide, or that there is hope, things will get better. I will fill you in on why I'm considering suicide this time. I began having panic attacks when I was 12, anxiety soon followed. I began homeschooling due to the severity of my anxiety and depression set in from not being around my friends as much. At around 15 I went to the psych ward for a few days for not leaving the house for 6 months. A typical day in that period of time began with enough time for me to think "Shit, here it comes." and a panic attack would begin. If I left the house, it was like a timer. The longer I was outside of the house, the longer I would have even more panic attacks/anxiety than normal. The psych ward effected me negatively for a few months afterwards. Let me explain a panic attack, as best I can. Imagine someone told you that someone very close to you just died. The shock, horror, and panic that you would feel for the first few seconds or more, in addition to feeling as though you may lose your mind, that is what a panic attack feels like. They would last for hours. And depression due to not knowing what the point of life was if you couldn't be a productive individual because of the anxiety, it's hard to fight that line of thinking. And then your brain wants some control over something in your life, so you develop OCD. It started by randomly picking up sticks while walking, I simply felt a strong urge to do so. Then it progressed to tapping something so many times, so many times with each hand, gulping so many times, etc. I could convince my brain that doing these things was very stupid and illogical, so I could fight those off, to a certain degree, some of the time. So what does my brain do? It makes me think "Fuck God" or something really bad pertaining to God, and the compulsion is to ask for forgiveness. Well, kinda hard to not ask for forgiveness when you're convinced you'll go to hell if you don't ask for forgiveness. Shortly after all this developed I went to the psych ward again at 17 for considering suicide. Fast forward, I'm 29, and although I was able to save alot of money due to living with my Dad until the last few years, I have my own place now. And due to increased living expenses, I can't make ends meet because I can't hold a job beyond what I do at home. I tried to work other places again and again. I worked for a few years at one job that I could still keep even if I had to take a few days off due to anxiety/ocd. I lasted one day at two jobs, 6 weeks at another. Not on welfare yet, although I was on medicaid for a year. I thought that was okay since I've paid taxes, so I can get some of the money the parasites on welfare have taken from me. So now I'm at the point where if I can't hold down another job out of the house, I'll have to sell my house and live with a family member. And due to my home business (farming), if I lose my farm I lose my way of making money. It's what I can do without my issues becoming unmanageable. I've known it all my life so my brain can tolerate it. So then, I will be a parasite, taking welfare and not being of use to the world, feeling like a failure anyway. The panic attacks have mainly subsided, after 15 years of pushing and pushing through it, "exposure therapy", my mind couldn't take anymore. So I just quit exposing myself to things that set it off. That and the meds I'm on I hardly have panic attacks anymore, but they come back with a vengeance as soon as I try to get an off the farm/out of the house job. And the OCD and anxiety is still there, constantly nagging. I mainly stay on the farm and go out to get feed ingredients and be with friends and family(even that causes anxiety). Other than that, I farm and and play computer games. My mind is tired. The circuits are fried. I would push through those panic attacks as best I could while working for other people, but in the end I fail. Eventually it becomes too much to bear. So if I get to the point where I just consume resources, why should I exist? So basically, I'm researching the best methods now so if/when it comes to selling everything and being a leach, I can do it correctly. I have a 12 gauge, I have slugs, I just need to use the proper angle in the head and do it in a location that will be easy to clean up. So please, when you say "Oh, it will get better, just keep trying", you have NO FUCKING CLUE of what you're talking about when you're talking to people who have been chronically mentally ill for over a decade. If I went to a looney bin, I would just consume even more resources and it would make my life a living hell being in a place like that. I've tried just about everything to make it better. So, I'm just going to ride the roller coaster until it stops. If I sell everything, there's a good chance I'll just end it. Maybe I can cover my basic necessities cutting firewood, I like doing that too. But if I do end it, at least I can cover all my debts or damn close to it. Then, if there is an afterlife I can look back on earth and feel like I may have had a net positive impact. I've been smart with my money and have assets. Or, maybe God will send me to hell for committing suicide, who the fuck knows?

This was indeed a weird place to visit.... Those people adding their ten cents worth of political excrement, ridicule of others, insensitivity towards the deep sadness of those courageous ones sharing their despair of living.... Those creeps with their worthless ten cents should have their computers confiscated. I swear there has been more emotional damage done by assholes via their online cruelty than all of human social interaction since time began.

Suicide should not be a hard thing to come by when it feels clearly needed. Perhaps, one day the choice of living or not will rest only with the one who lives it. When life is meaningless to one, the concept of an other's sadness, disapproval or even insistence of "the light at the end of the tunnel" sort of crap would never matter anyway. There actually are societies on this planet who have risen to the point of really understanding that individuals might have a good reason for not wanting to live. A life matters when it matters to the one who lives it. Letting go might be hard, but hanging on can sometimes be so much harder. Is it always worth it?

For myself, though I have been on and off suicidal since about the age of 5*, I really tried hard at finding purpose, coming back from the failures, rejections and abuses to try again. Now at 62 and getting worse after surviving 30 years of HIV and the poisons they gave me to "keep me from getting sick", the damage done is too painful and I don't have the energy to "go have some fun" anyway. I am really wondering why I listened to all that crap about making it work and didn't off myself a long long time ago. I would have saved the rest of you taxpayers over a couple million bucks!
(* at age 5 one does not understand the concept of killing oneself much less killing any one else.... I do remember not wanting to be alive and wishing I had not been born when I was not wondering why I was even made!)

bewilderedbyallofit Wrote:
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> This was indeed a weird place to visit.... Those
> people adding their ten cents worth of political
> excrement, ridicule of others, insensitivity
> towards the deep sadness of those courageous ones
> sharing their despair of living.... Those creeps
> with their worthless ten cents should have their
> computers confiscated. I swear there has been
> more emotional damage done by assholes via their
> online cruelty than all of human social
> interaction since time began.
>


A different forum is one click away.

Hi all,

Was a great read, learnt alot.. All setup with the remington 870 short barrel. Got a 40 Of Jack and playing some depressing music to help me along...

Life sucks.

Im Out...

Dead Guy Wrote:
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> Hi all,
>
> Was a great read, learnt alot.. All setup with the
> remington 870 short barrel. Got a 40 Of Jack and
> playing some depressing music to help me along...
>
> Life sucks.
>
> Im Out...

Don't do it...life's worth while as long as there's triggered liberals to agitate
It only takes 2 posts to get this liberals jumpin up and down...funniest thing I'll ever do!

I couldnt do it.. Got really wasted then i started haveing fun posting music on facebook, and I couldnt do it :-P

IM STILL ALIVE AND IM LOVING IT RIGHT NOW :-D REALLY DRUNk THough LOl and smoked alot of POT lol...

I LOVE MUSIC!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ovdm2yX4MA

This GiF link below goes really well with this song :-P

https://media.giphy.com/media/13CoXDiaCcCoyk/giphy.gif

Without music, I would have ended my life many times before......

MUSIC IS LIFE!!!

Express yourself :-D

Its the BEST Therapy :-D

What would we ever do without Good Up-Beat, Music??? :-D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=psuRGfAaju4&NR=1

heres another great song...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_3GQu7dm-I

Music is THERAPY!!!

https://soundcloud.com/adamtylermusic/knew-you-better

This is the last song ill post tonight....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_izvAbhExY

I lost track of time... Im almost 3/4 the way through the next day already LOL

I Love MUSIC :-D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWjrMTWXH28

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw

Whilk & Misky - Clap Your Hands

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bH_jxhnPf2c

John Lennon Imagine (Official Music Video 1971)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJ72bYyEtBg

The Wanted - Glad You Came (Official)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiEEJds8JFE

The Wanted - Chasing The Sun

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFS5N_yAGTo

Martin Garrix - Animals (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCYcHz2k5x0

Calvin Harris - My Way (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4Bj7Zb-YD4

Sesto Sento - Key to the Universe

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P87uJt5UNz0

YOu are a CREATIVE SOUL!!! Use that SPIRIT TO PUSH ON!!!

Suicide

Confront a alligator letm eat you raw
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I Kn ow I already posted this, But this has to be the or close to the hundreth tiem ive listented to this tonight while watching Shakeel Oniel and the kitty dance to the beats :-D


I LOVE IT :0-D


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ovdm2yX4MA

This GiF link below goes really well with this song :-P

https://media.giphy.com/media/13CoXDiaCcCoyk/giphy.gif

Bignic - Tetrapod

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddQpf8m4ij0

Zombies - Modern

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TshRUMhk7w8

64 Squares

https://inversephase.bandcamp.com/track/64-squares

This gif has been playiung for every song ive played tonight and postesd here :-D

https://media.giphy.com/media/13CoXDiaCcCoyk/giphy.gif

The Wanted - Glad You Came (Official)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiEEJds8JFE

I Feel Good - James Brown - 1965

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETNWrulIDic


GOof Night all :-D

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!

I cant help myself :-P... ONE MORE SONG!!! Bofore I go away :-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k85mRPqvMbE

Son Lux - Easy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PIPyPMNnp8

Talking Heads - Once In A Lifetime (Full Length Version) (1980/ 2013) (HD)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98AJUj-qxHI

Rag'n'Bone Man - Human (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wKzyIN1yk

AC/DC - Touch Too Much (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGftIcp2SC0

Jamiroquai - Deeper Underground

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIUAC03YMlA

Imagine Dragons - Radioactive

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktvTqknDobU

Porter Robinson - Language (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LILChvqUo4

A Cool Cat in Town (music by TAPE FIVE)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qCRO964l_nE

Bon Jovi - It's My Life

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vx2u5uUu3DE


Ive had this GIf going all night for every song ive posted :-D

https://media.giphy.com/media/13CoXDiaCcCoyk/giphy.gif

New Divide (Official Video) - Linkin Park


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysSxxIqKNN0

Always remmeber, that it is up to you to change your situation... You can hoohle all you want, but noone will have the answers.... LIFE AND LEARN!!!!!

Email me if any of you ever wants to talk...

Jesse Stewart - Cold Beer (Cry Tunes)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=87_TOuYDigk

Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This) (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qeMFqkcPYcg

DEPECHE MODE - People Are People (1984)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_3GQu7dm-I

a-ha - Take On Me (Official Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djV11Xbc914

Parov Stelar - Ragtime Cat ft Lilja Bloom (Lunch Break) ft. NEILAND

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqCsg4U3iqQ

Eiffel 65 - Blue (Da Ba Dee) (Original Video with subtitles)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc

Dont be Blue "=D

Parov Stelar - The Mojo Radio Gang (Doc-Terry Video Remix) HD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ucG773oSi-E

The Tragically Hip - Ahead By A Century

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QE2joQsWXJg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vLiJIgVlRQ&sns=em

Ass got fried, is a suicide.
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Foo Fighters - Best Of You

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_L4Rixya64

Ask Embla
Legion

https://soundcloud.com/askemblamusic-1/legion-demo

Seether - Words As Weapons

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=202fjZZO-tI

Blackstreet-No Diggity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOIt51w6cH8

Broken Bells - The High Road

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWBG1j_flrg

The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This (Lyric)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FM7MFYoylVs

Kygo, Selena Gomez - It Ain't Me (with Selena Gomez) (Audio)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5drYkLiLI8

http://dai.ly/x2fmu7

Sacrifice, commit suicide and I'll bring you back to life.
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Scatman (ski-ba-bop-ba-dop-bop) Official Video HD -Scatman John

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hy8kmNEo1i8

Luis Fonsi - Despacito ft. Daddy Yankee

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJQP7kiw5Fk

bignic-purpose

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85K4BI-GsGw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryDjX3zgU-w

No one asked for your political analysis libtard. STFU, you all are so transparent and self absorbed. See if your bubble will burst

Sorry you wanna die. Me too, that's what led me here, looking for best place to aim. I don't know why you wanna die but before I go I'm gonna tell ya why I wanna die. I lost my 1st husband in a car accident when I was 21, I was left with a daughter and a son. I re-married and lost that husband in 2017, lost my son in 2012, lost my mom 9 days after my husband and I just can't take this pain and loneliness anymore.Done. You all should search your souls for a bit of compassion. You never know what another person is going thru. It's horribly painful sometimes

3 TD!
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When my beloved dog was dying from an illness that was beyond any help from a vet I felt like it was my obligation to take her to the vet and have her put to sleep. This was the righteous and noble thing to do for her. In her last few years she was losing weight, could not eat,could not sleep very well,was having convulsions and seizures,panic attacks,didn't know where she was at, cowering and shivering with fear,breathing difficulty and many other deathly symptoms. She no longer enjoyed hunting,digging up voles,watching the sunset,or any other activities in life that made her life worth living. WHY would anyone who had any sense of humanity watch her suffer on a day by day basis with these hellish symptoms? Where she could no longer breathe. Anyone who says don't worry about it,play her some music,she'll enjoy it has a screw loose and will find their own selves in a very hellish condition soon if they're not careful. And then you'll have no one to end your misery and say here, listen to this tune, or watch this T.V. show while your a human vegetable drooling from your quivering lips. Wait till this happens to you and see how much of a smuck you are then.

YOUR A PIECE OF SHIT FOR SAYIN THAT. YOU DIDNT TRY TO STOP THEY OR TALK O THEM TO THEM TO TRY TO STOP THEM. U JUST DONT WANN DEAL WITH PAPER WORK OR THE MESS? I PE U ROT IN HELL BITCH. UOUR ONE OF THE REASONS PEOPLE DONT WANNA BE IN IS FUCKED UP WORLD! BET YOU VOTED FOR TRUMP YOU TWISTED BIYCH!!!

I too am giving consideration(+/-33% chance)of committing suicide. I have an incredibly difficult time with the prospect of exploding my face/head. I know it’s absurd as I would have no use for them anymore but.....it is what it is.

Might I interject a possible alternative option?

Fentanyl laced heroin to thme vein.....For anyone with no/limited exposure to opiates it is a guaranteed death which, by its VERY NATURE assures a painlesss transition to whatever awaits us....

You will feel better than you ever have for roughly 7 seconds then.....Well, that’s a question of great debate over the ages....

Heroin and cyanide are the only options I have found which leave your body looking good which for some reason, even as a male, I am sensitive to. I also have ben addicted to shooting up opiates thought it has been over a decade which would make it easier for me than for other perhaps.

We shall see what the future holds. C’est la vie.

I understand and appreciate everyone who tries to encourage others to hold on, seek help, and so forth but as a lifelong menatally I’ll and severely suffering suicidal individual myself, please hear me when I say you don’t understand. There is no way for you to. There is not enough sympathy or empathy in this world to release us from the hell we live with inside of us... every moment of every day. Yes, some of us our lucky enough to have family, even if it’s just a few people who truly care and these people surely play a consideration in our strength and ability to keep holding on or lack there of. Yet some of us have no family, never had, or the few who exist are a big part of the problem. Friends, well as adults, we all know friends come and go, even the ones that we trust completely and have helped be our rock and positive support system can disappear in the blink of an eye. That person I had in my life was given an ultimatum by her new gf to choose between her or me, of course she abandoned me to please her gf. See, that is a common trend in our lives, we find a few very rare people we feel safe to open up to, put our faith in, think we can count on them they disappear for no good reason. We aren’t talking simple loneliness it’s so much bigger than that. It reminds us that we are virtually invalid and unworthy of love, loyalty, commitment and care... things that “normal” people with “normal” families are given by virtue of nature. Those of us who weren’t that fortunate spend our whole lives just looking for the place we belong, are wanted, loved and safe. I don’t care who you are, enough years of that coupled with every time you muster the strength and promise yourself “one more try” and allow yourself to be vaulnerable just to find yourself with the same results, hurts, and demons to fight all over again.... alone is unbearable. They pains from before never truly heal or go away and every new failure steals another piece of your soul. Eventually you’re left with nothing. And absolutely will do anything to stop the pain, hell, misery, flashbacks, unpredictable reenactments that involuntarily play through your mind over and over, the physical reactions that your body goes through because of everything happening inside. Suicidal people only want peace, by any means. If not here on earth then in death. Telling them they are worth more than death when life shows them otherwise over and over is a worthless statement. We need something more tangible than words and that is nearly impossible to find for many of us in this live on earth.

oh nice, you fucking piece of shit

you're shit

Just put on a pair of headphones on play your favorite music let that train run year neck over cut your head right off

Hutson p. That's a great way to commit suicide. Have a train run over your neck. Is this a better option then slowly dying in some shit hole cancer ward watching your body literally rot away. You bet it is. Is it a better option then slowly dying in a hospital with no chance for recovery watching your insurance and life savings being slowly drained by hospital administrators who could care less if you live or die? You bet it is.Suicide is a much better alternative then people give it credit for. You better have your durable power of attorney documents signed off so you don't live on a ventilator in a semi-comatose state unable to even watch a simple TV show. Cause that hospital will own everything you worked for,then some. Suicide is a much better option then stroking out and letting this happen to you. A gun blast to the back of the head is a much better option. It can be any caliber weapon as well. A .22 revolver will do the trick. The Israeli Mosad uses this caliber as their weapon of choice for assassinations. The muzzle velocity is lower then a .45 caliber and scrambles the brain more efficiently. Instead of the .45 caliber slug going through the brain, the.22 slug stays in the brain actually causing more damage or death.

its 2018, you dead yet?

its 2018, you dead yet? Wrote:
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> its 2018, you dead yet?

I am mentally but not physically yet.

I came to this page and saw what you asked this person that felt the same way I do, and here is my answer. I am 40 years old, none of my family talks to me, my brother has threatened to sue me, I have cancer, my girlfriend left me, I've only had one girlfriend in my life, I've had severe nightmare daily since my childhood. I have not been employed in over 5 years and cannot find work. I have run out of money and am being evicted from my apartment, My mother died with no goodbye. My uncle sued me over her will. I am 6'1 and weigh 125 pounds, I have diarrhea and mucus attacks daily for 40 years that no doctor has been able to help with at all (daily physical suffering). I've tried religion, volenteering, therapy, art, going back to college, exercise...My friends all abandoned me after my mom died. 3 successful friends of mine have killed themselves in the past year, my jawbone has shrunk to almost nothing alarming my dentist but she doesn't know what it is or what to do (spent 5 years and thousands of dollars...jaw still shrinks and hurts daily. Foot injury making it hard to walk, exercise and work for years (spent all I can afford for medical help with that problem as well. I have suffered from panic attacks and depression my entire life and have received no help and everytime i tried to seek help or get medication I've been rejected and accused of being a lazy, selfish, brat. I've spent all holidays alone for years now. I tried to treat myself to a vacation and it was horrible, no-one wants to be around me and I don't blame them, I have so many problems that even doctors and money can't fix that it seems like the only way to stop suffering almost every moment of my existence. I know it will hurt others, but they don't care enough about me for me to keep hurting for years just so they can be more comfortably with me being alive and suffering.

So that is why and believe me there is way more...Can you think of a better way to end my daily suffering that's lasted my life since age 4ish?

wow. I suffer from these same things and no one understands. You have worded this very well, thank you for that. I hope you can find peace here on earth, I'm still struggling and trying to find it too.

Someone Wrote:
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> Of all the places to seek attention or advice..
> Most idiots on here can't even type..
>
> You guys make me want to shoot myself..
>
> Stop attention seeking..
> Instead of searching for Attention or Death..
> Go search for Life..
>
> People much worse off are still living happy..
> Happiness is not given to you, it is earned..

What a bitter, selfish, judgmental, over-simplifying moron

James West Wrote:
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> I came to this page and saw what you asked this
> person that felt the same way I do, and here is my
> answer. I am 40 years old, none of my family talks
> to me, my brother has threatened to sue me, I have
> cancer, my girlfriend left me, I've only had one
> girlfriend in my life, I've had severe nightmare
> daily since my childhood. I have not been employed
> in over 5 years and cannot find work. I have run
> out of money and am being evicted from my
> apartment, My mother died with no goodbye. My
> uncle sued me over her will. I am 6'1 and weigh
> 125 pounds, I have diarrhea and mucus attacks
> daily for 40 years that no doctor has been able to
> help with at all (daily physical suffering). I've
> tried religion, volenteering, therapy, art, going
> back to college, exercise...My friends all
> abandoned me after my mom died. 3 successful
> friends of mine have killed themselves in the past
> year, my jawbone has shrunk to almost nothing
> alarming my dentist but she doesn't know what it
> is or what to do (spent 5 years and thousands of
> dollars...jaw still shrinks and hurts daily. Foot
> injury making it hard to walk, exercise and work
> for years (spent all I can afford for medical help
> with that problem as well. I have suffered from
> panic attacks and depression my entire life and
> have received no help and everytime i tried to
> seek help or get medication I've been rejected and
> accused of being a lazy, selfish, brat. I've spent
> all holidays alone for years now. I tried to treat
> myself to a vacation and it was horrible, no-one
> wants to be around me and I don't blame them, I
> have so many problems that even doctors and money
> can't fix that it seems like the only way to stop
> suffering almost every moment of my existence. I
> know it will hurt others, but they don't care
> enough about me for me to keep hurting for years
> just so they can be more comfortably with me being
> alive and suffering.
>
> So that is why and believe me there is way
> more...Can you think of a better way to end my
> daily suffering that's lasted my life since age
> 4ish?
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Who are these "people" that come to this site to hurt others and post stupid hateful shit? This photo that some user name "eat shit and die" posted...what scum of the earth? you probably hurt animals and hate yourself. Why don't you spend your time watching netflix or porn or reading a book instead of coming on to a page where people are crying out for help? No need to waste any more breathe on you...but that is a nice picture of your mother giving birth to you on a jungle gym in the park you filthy white nigger

I totally agree, I am so sick of people saying oh it'll get better, people will love you and miss you, etc. I don't have anybody that would even realize that I was gone aside from my employer. I am sick and tired of having to work my ass off at a job that I hate and at a place that I hate and I'm too mentally screwed up and drained at this point to try to make it better again, something Ive trying to do for years so I am just ready to get out , and I will find away

H&K Guy Wrote:
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> Do not kill yourself.
>
> It is selfish and will ruin the lives of everyone
> that loves, cares about, and has befriended you.
>
> Get help by calling the Suicide Prevention
> Hotline.
>
> But if you ever reach the level of complete
> selfishness that makes you determined to kill
> yourself - please participate in the Republican
> 'Climate Change is a Hoax' study first.
>
> Fill your car with gas. Then park your car in your
> garage. Close the garage doors. Run a hose from
> the car exhaust pipe in through a crack in the
> drivers side window. Put towels on either side of
> the hose to seal the window. Get in the drivers
> seat. Close the door. Start the car. Recline the
> seat. Nod off to sleep for 6-8 hours. Simply
> report your experiences here on FFXU the following
> day.
>
> Next, exercise your 2nd Amendment rights and go
> buy a cheap used gun without a background check at
> some gun show even though you are in the Suicide
> Prevention Hotline database which even the NSA
> can't tap into. Then participate in the Republican
> 'Guns don't kill people' study. Load your gun. Put
> it to your head. Turn the safety off. Pull the
> trigger. Have your gun tell us how it didn't kill
> you the following day.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING KILL YOURSELF. What's selfish is to stay alive, even though you could just end yourself in order to benifit everyone around you, especially in your case. :) See you in Hell babe xoxoxo

Let me out of this world Wrote:
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> I totally agree, I am so sick of people saying oh
> it'll get better, people will love you and miss
> you, etc. I don't have anybody that would even
> realize that I was gone aside from my employer. I
> am sick and tired of having to work my ass off at
> a job that I hate and at a place that I hate and
> I'm too mentally screwed up and drained at this
> point to try to make it better again, something
> Ive trying to do for years so I am just ready to
> get out , and I will find away


Do something for society first and take Miz with you.

That will get you some brownie points in heaven.

And if Tator starts to cry, put him out of his "Mizery".
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No, you really do need something that has enough power to actually blow your brains out. Otherwise you may survive as a bumbling retard who needs to be supervised at all times and then you wouldn't be able to kill yourself if you tried.

Sometimes people are tired. Not depressed. Just tired. Not all of us fit into society. Not all of us have had lives that most would understand and yet, we still don't feel sorry for ourselves but understand wholeheartedly that we just don't belong and are tired of trying to. It is easy to judge; not so easy to understand if you don't. I also have this question. The only worry I have is a failed attempt. I miss my husband. I have fought off the feeling for three years now, with a lot of therapy and medication. I wont leave a mess; I just dont want to fail at the attempt.

The fact this forum still up and running is funny. I bet my mans dead by now and y'all still fretting over these people who wanna die in peace.

Suicide isn't something I condone. But if it makes the person feel at peace to kill their-selves then let them. Psych Wards sometimes don't help.. and family can sometimes ridicule you for being suicidal.

So long story short what i'm getting at is that y'all need to realize some people don't really feel like their lives have value. And you can all fight me and call me heartless and say i'm an asshole or something.. But i'm just observing the obvious of this long 3-page forum.. These people want to die. And I don't think its fair to them that we're being so .. harsh and defensive because that's what they want in life.

Lmao I don't want y'all coming for my wig.

Bignigga Wrote:
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> The fact this forum still up and running is funny.
> I bet my mans dead by now and y'all still fretting
> over these people who wanna die in peace.
>
> Suicide isn't something I condone. But if it makes
> the person feel at peace to kill their-selves then
> let them. Psych Wards sometimes don't help.. and
> family can sometimes ridicule you for being
> suicidal.
>
> So long story short what i'm getting at is that
> y'all need to realize some people don't really
> feel like their lives have value. And you can all
> fight me and call me heartless and say i'm an
> asshole or something.. But i'm just observing the
> obvious of this long 3-page forum.. These people
> want to die. And I don't think its fair to them
> that we're being so .. harsh and defensive because
> that's what they want in life.
>
> Lmao I don't want y'all coming for my wig.

Gerry should kill himself.

My boyfriend shot himself two months ago. I don’t remember the type of gun but I know we went hunting with it, and the bullet was the size of my finger. Since then my life has been over. Ive searched carbon monoxide poisoning but didn’t wanna risk brain damage and hanging hurt too bad

Thank you for the advice, much love to you all

One in a he stink, turn that frown upside down.




Gotta go Wrote:
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> My boyfriend shot himself two months ago. I
> don’t remember the type of gun but I know we
> went hunting with it, and the bullet was the size
> of my finger. Since then my life has been over.
> Ive searched carbon monoxide poisoning but
> didn’t wanna risk brain damage and hanging hurt
> too bad
>
> Thank you for the advice, much love to you all
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Hey there, folks. The authorities won't let me buy a gun! How should I go about doing myself in? my sister says I should turn the gas on and close all the windows.....

wtf did I just stumble upon

:/

rly?

Umm, yeah don't do that, how about not kill yourself

I got in trouble for simply being on this site from my school, :/

BEH Wrote:
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> Make sure the caliber is at least 38 or 357 , I
> wouldn't trust a 22 or a 25, you want to make sure
> your brain is really decimated.


So would you say a Smith and Wesson .45 M&P (specifically the compact version) would do the trick?

I really wouldn't want any chance of survival, but also don't know if I'm comfortable with a shotgun.

adsplendor Wrote:
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>
> I really wouldn't want any chance of survival, but
> also don't know if I'm comfortable with a shotgun.

How long does this need to be discussed?

Actions speak louder than words and it is time you finally follow through with something.

MEADE SKELT0N Wrote:
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> Hey there, folks. The authorities won't let me buy
> a gun! How should I go about doing myself in? my
> sister says I should turn the gas on and close all
> the windows.....
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Drop dead OP.

Fry in hell.

Put up or shut up Wrote:
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> adsplendor Wrote:
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> -----
>
> >
> > I really wouldn't want any chance of survival,
> but
> > also don't know if I'm comfortable with a
> shotgun.
>
> How long does this need to be discussed?
>
> Actions speak louder than words and it is time you
> finally follow through with something.



Ummm, I actually only posted once on this thread.

I may be suicidal, but that doesn't mean I'm an underachiever.

Don't you dare pass a judgement like that when you've never so much as met the person.

People like you are the ones I truly won't miss.

Use an MP-40 and shoot yourself through the mouth for best destruction






- fellow suicider

My grandfather used a shotgun.Pulled that trigger and decorated the ceiling with his brains.No pain,closed casket funeral.