hot tub song is called.... you'll never know. i think she was so beautiful, an had a beautiful unique voice. i think she was a sweetheart, just very troubled. her mom abused her growing up....i feel she was on a desperate search for love, an when she finally found it, an lost it, then her sons, plus having the drug an alcohol addiction, i think she found herself with a loss of fame, pride, prob of money, of friends, family, her love, her kids, and the loneliness an pain was more than she could bare finally that day. i think in killing herself she probably felt...i end my pain, i get to be with my love...and in my suicide i will show my sons...see i DID love you...so much so i couldnt live without you. i think she felt completely hopeless...helpless...an unloved, uncared for. now that shes gone all these singers claiming they were such friends, where the hell were they while she struggled? nowhere to be found. be easy with her memory people. consider her as human. a troubled soul...steming from abuse's. not a selfish person. we were not her, we did not walk in her shoes, her mind, her heart, we can not judge her...we shouldn't. may you rest in peace fallen angel. i always thought you are what female angels probably look like. i miss your presence on this earth i love you friend.